i was so ashamed,all alone and so far away. but now i know that He's been waiting for this day..

today went shopping with mum at orchard. from like 1pm to 830pm. can burn a lot of fats, especially eating at macs for lunch. super high sodium content and high in fats. parked at wellington building, the cheapest carpark in orchard. actually wanted to walk to hilton first. on the way we walked through tangs. passed by the bags section. after choosing and selection, mum finally bought three handbags and one travelling bag. four bags in a day! haha. went out of tangs building and walked into isetan. went to the shoes section and mum saw a pair that she liked and was quite comfortable. so she considered. to cut the long story short, we went to pacific plaza, where the gays and transvestites congregate, metro paragon, tangs and isetan and hilton. spent 7 hours in just five places. the longest was at isetan cos mum asked to talk to the manager of evita peroni cos they still had her clip since last year. finally the agreement was the she could buy new hair accessories with a discount of 30%. whoa! took super long just to choose various hairclips and rubberbands. and the salesgirl taught her how to do her hair nicely and that took even long time. wanted to buy sneakers, but they were all to ex for me to even say that i like them. so i'll have to think carefully first. at the end of the day, we went home with four bags, one pair of shoe, and three hair accessories for mum, and nothing but a blister on the my left foot for me. what a sad story...

TheServant

3:23 PM

today's quite a nice day. woke up at 1030 as usual. had five pancakes for breakfast, played piano for a while and i was off to play basketball with weijing etc. but didnt really play though, due to some reasons. at least i was under the sun. yes! i say it again, under the sun. i love the sun. then after that to sarah's house with cherilyn for awhile to wait for her to take out her contacts and off we went for cg. it was alright, but i felt a bit weird today. kind of like a little discouraged. dunno why also. anyway, after that met mum at sheng siong, or siongsheng [whatever] to buy groceries. the things there are cheaper than those in ntuc, although the place smells and it's quite messy. then went joggingby myself when we got home. jogging is nice, jogging is good. jogging will keep your body toned, especially after that ice cream cone. joggged 7 rounds around the park, which is equivalent to about 2.1km. not bad, since i havent really exercised for more than half a year. haha. hopefully it'll burn off all the suger[which will turn into fats] from the big gulp i drank in the afternoon. fortunately cherilyn shared some with me. went home. didnt have time to bathe so i just washed my hair and we went to s11 at amk central for dinner. luckily i didnt bathe cos the place was so crowded, oily, stuffy, and had a lot of fumes from the cooking. if i bathed, all the effort spent cleaning myself earlier would be in vain. haha. alright. i'm off to read books now. bye!

TheServant

3:42 PM

try out my new recipe! it's called the 'cassandra's swiss-rosti-inspired fried diced potato'.

ingredients:
1 diced potato, preferably cooked with the skin peeled [serves one]
two thirds teaspoon of low fat and low salt butter
a pinch of salt
some oregano and pepper for taste

things needed:
a hungry stomach
a passion for cooking
a frying pan
the big spoon used for cooking
flame

steps:
1. turn on the stove. not too big fire
2. put the butter into the pan until it melts and becomes hot
3.throw in the diced potato and toss it a little. do not keep stirring or they dish would become mashed potato instead
4. after a while, increase the heat so that the surface of the potato turns golden brown and quite crispy.
5. add a pinch of salt [optional]
6.when golden brown, sprinkle oregano and pepper to enhance the taste.
7. turn off the fire
8. dish it
9.serve with one serving of fruits and one serving of veggies.

TheServant

10:40 AM

this morning rushed through my last art piece. then at about two thirty, set off for temasek poly. i too about one hour to reach there, cos today, thank God, i didnt have to wait for any buses. the moment i reached the bus stop, the bus arrived. but all except the last bus, which i'll explain later. so i took 72 to tampines, which was a forty five mintues bus ride. then i changed to 69. not sure how long the journey took cos i was busy looking out for the building. the place was quite big, and i followed my instincts and my good sense of direction. haha. finally i reached the school of design without getting lost.. not bad eh. first time there som more. was quite nervous. like who wont be. heh. oh ya, by the way, i was an hour early. they were quite surprised. they called me in soon after registering. they asked to see my portfolio. and gosh they asked me questions that though they werent hard, i had no idea as to how to answer them. they asked a lot about how i did my art and what i thought about my own art pieces. sommore ask me to rate them. of course i was very humble and i rated one of them as 6/10, although i knew myself that i should be given higher marks. hahahahahahaaa. also ask me to show them my worst piece in the folio. also asked if i were to do an advertistment for a company, which company will i work for and how will i go about doing it. how you expect me to answer this kind of question on the sport? haa. there was a moment of silence. but on the whole it was okay la. heh. now i've got to wait for two weeks for the outcome. wish me happy waiting. on the way back i alighted halfway to take 854. the stupid bus. i'm going to write in to trans island. it was peak hour and the frequency was so low. expect me and few other people at the bus stop to wait for two stupid buses to pass before boarding the third one that comes. !@#$$%^&^. also dunno why they dont want to use their bendy bus during peak period. and dont they ever have ventilation in any of their buses? tibs buses are all so xiang. okay, i'm going to cook noodles now. bye!

TheServant

2:38 PM

just finished making the dough for my cookies. they're now in the freezer to be chilled. should be cold enough in about 20 minutes. heh. i'm quite nervous. tomorrow going for the early admission interview at temasek poly. i dont quite feel like going cos it's so far. and it starts like around 5pm, quite late. byt eh time i get home it'll be about 7+. sigh. and i dunno if i've got enough things in my portfolio. i think they're quite lousy. sigh. sighh. sighhh. maybe it's because my file has got a lot of pages which makes what i put in seem so little. it has got 30+ pages. so if i fill all, there'd be a total of about 60 art pieces inside. so perhaps i dont have that little after all. heh. just trying to console myself. i think i better try digging out more art works. even those ugly ones. maybe the interviewer might think they're nice. haha. and i should organise them in a chronological order, since sec 1 till now. so they'll think that at least i put some effort into it. ahaah. i should make a nice cover page too. so it'll seem more appealing. haha.

yesterday i baked a real chocolate cake, not what you think it is. and by this morning, it's all gone. to be more precise, it was already more than half gone last night. now i wonder how long these coookies would last. the most two days. hahaa.

okay. it's time to get my cookies out. yayy! i love cookie monster!!! COOKIE!

TheServant

9:59 AM

shucks. i've got to go to temasek poly for early admission interview on the 27th, which is on thursday at 5pm. that's quite late. so now i've got to rush through my unfinished art pieces and quickly do up my portfolio. it's only half filled, or should i say half empty? then i also need to do some touch up on some old pieces. but actually i'm not really sure if i should go there if they even accept me cos it's terribly far from home. got to take bus to yck bus interchange, which is about 15 to 20 minutes, including waiting. then got to wait for the 72 bus to come, and the ride to tampines bus interchange is about an hour. from tampines bus interchange, got to change bus to 69 to finally reach temasek poly. i think all in all, the total travelling time is about one and a half hours. i'm definitely not willing to sacrifice this precious time just to travel from school to home. if i go to nanyang poly, it'll only take me the most fifteen minutes to get there by bus, or a five minutes car ride. what's more, i can take two bus services there. what a world of difference! unfortunately nanyang doesnt really offer the course that i want to learn. unless i consider nursing????

hahahaaa.

TheServant

3:30 AM

yay! my portfolio's almost done. dunno whether i should bring those bigger paintings there or not. cos it's very troublesome and i hate to carry a lot of things. haha. anyway, today i baked a cake. a real chocolate cake, not what you think it is.

TheServant

10:24 PM

whoa! spent almost the whole afternoon making the prawn thing. you know the tidbit normally eaten during new year? it's about 1.5 inches in length and it's quite spicy. if you dont know what i'm talking about, forget it! hahaa. anyway, it was very hard work. had to pound the dried prawns, chop garlic, shallots, and dried chille. i spent like more than one hour just pounding the prawns. after frying everything and mixing everything together, we proceeded to the most tedious part- the wrapping. yup. cut the spring roll skin in twelves, each piece measuring about 1.5 inch by 2.5 inches. then my maid and i painstakingly wrapped each one, following strictly to the rule that my mum imposed. each one has to be about 1.5 inches. so i put a ruler beside the choppping board to ensure that each one was perfect. yup. DILIGENT IN SERVICE, indeed. so if you happend to come to my house for new year, dont forget to try the prawn roll that my maid and i made. must yingshuishiyuan. remember the hardwork beside each piece you eat. i mean it! oh, by the way, our prawn rolls are specially for chilli fans. cos i think we put too much dried chilli into it. oops! haha. but it's still nice. we use fresh and clean ingredients, unlike those made in factories cos no one knows what's in there. grins.

this after that stupid tupperware woman came to collect our old tupperware for changing. right from the start i was already pissed off by her cos the first thing she did was to keep pressing and pressing and pressing the doorbell. she think the doorbell battery free or what. then she talked to me with obviously fake ang moh accent, trying to sound very high class. what shit. i passed her the bag of spoilt tupperware and her first reaction was 'so many?' then her even more idiotic husband who thinks that just because he drives a mercedes benz s class can boss me around. !@#$%^&&*#.

husband: 'come on la, be more resonable can anot? you think you giving us the whole house ah?'
me: eh.. actually there're only four boxes and but they're quite big..
wife[trying to sound apologetic because she had no guts to apologise for the embarrassment her husband has caused her]: oh dear.. they look really old.. it's alright, i'll try my best to do what i can although it's not my line, and i'll take my time..

her last line pissed me off the most. %$#^&!@. how dare she still say that!!!! call herself a tupperware dealer? my maid narrated an incident with her cos we bought the tupperware vegetable and fruits cleaner.

wife: nah! here're the things that you bought. can pay me now?
my maid: but my ma'am also ask me to give you the tupperware to change..
wife: aiyah.. other day lah! just pay me the money now!

that was one and a half weeks ago. i really wonder how these people do business. all they want is money and money and nothing else. without hardwork, how can one be successful? i think one day they'll have to sell their mercedes and mortgage their condo. how can this kind of people do business? they better rethink their business strategies, cos i feel that there's not way they're going to earn big bucks if they continue this way in this service and people oriented economy. let's look at SIA. know why they're so well known? it's because of the excellent service that they not only provide at the terminals, but also onboard the aircraft. i feel that service plays a lot with a person's feelings and emotions. so, if one gets served well, he'll tend to remember where he received this good service from. naturally, he'll return to that place, and the rest is history. therefore, i strongly believe in being steadfast in spirit, diligent in service. yup. that's my school moto. yay!

TheServant

4:15 PM

today's ahma's 86th birthday. so obviously we've to go to her house to celebrate. after singing the song, we had to wish her in hokkien. like many of the cousins, i, too, didnt know what to say. and we say zhao sia somemore. hhaa. it was quite funny. lalalaa.

to ahma:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AHMA,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

TheServant

2:14 PM

happy 15th birthday esther aka zhoujielun!!!!

TheServant

11:12 PM

hi! i'm now in the midst of completing an art piece. to be more precise, a painting. actually not really completing, cos i've still got three quarter more to go. haha. i'm here so that my back can have some rest. you see, my desk's in such a big mess that there's no space to put my art work. you can barely fit an a4 size paper on the remaining space. that's how big the mess is. yup. ahah. yay! so, i've got to do my paining on the floor, which means that i've got to sit on the floor and bend over. now i yao suan bei tong already. will someone massage me? i want to buy the osim massage chair, but it's too ex. sigh. heh.

this afternoon drank one and a half big cup of watermelon juice that my maid blended. made me go to the toilet so many times, and i had to suffer the consequences of having toooo much dietry fibre in my body. haha. know what i mean right. then after that my sister and i shared one box of loacker chocolate bars and the packet of something like cotton candy that serena gave. so much suger in my body!! argh. i think i'm going to get fat soon. sigh. better go for a jog this evening. the weather seems quite good. yup. yay! burn fats burn fats burn fats!!!

okay. i better go complete my painting. still got quite a lot more to do. bye!

TheServant

9:28 AM

yayy! managed to go back to xm today. the school really changed a lot. now it's like quite spacious, and the staff room is definitely nicer. it's much much much more spacious. yup. and went to see the new hall and the indoor sports hall. the indoor sports hall is on the top floor and the hall below that. the hall's about two and a half times bigger, and the sports hall is even bigger. wonder how much money they spent building all these. then i think they did away with the ying shui shi yuan pond which was quite mouldy. oh ya, we forgot to see the coffee corner. anyway the canteen was given a fresh new coat of paint and the ceiling seemed higher.actually the whole school was given a fresh coat of paint which made it look newer. the foyer's quite nice too, but a little bare. but it's it's new mah. wait a few more months. yup. oh and i didnt see the library. we also wanted to climb the haunted staircase but it was locked. looks like w'd never get a chance to climb it. haha. talked to mr gabriel tan and hua lao shi. talked for quite long, and about all sorts of things. what mr tan said made me want to go to poly even more. thanks mr tan. then i told hualaoshi that i'm a part time maid at home and she said that i'd become a good housewife in future.??????? haha. anyway, i'd never want to become a housewife. i'd rather work. by the way, hualaoshi's the best teacher on earth. yayy. xiexie hualaoshi! yup. on the whole i think that the school looks good, nice and clean, exactly what a neighbourhood school who has attained the singapore quality class status and the distinction award should have. three cheers for xinmin! yay! okay, i better stop being proud. one of the value of the month is humility. hehh. after we left school went to the shop nearby to buy our icekachang and ice jelly. gosh! two years without it. i remember in sec two after training qianling, ruishan and i would always buy icekachang and ice jelly from there. and it's only $1. so finally we managed to buy it. mel and i had the cravings. haha. alright. i've got to go for dinner.

TheServant

11:30 AM

today had piano lessons. learnt about harmony and chord progressions. hopefully can take theory exam soon. i prefer theory to practical. hahh. yay. ending with a minor is actually quite nice. it gives sort of a question mark kind of feeling. can also end with Ic, V7 , I or IV, V,I OR II,V,I. chord II can be replaced by chord IV. all these are done so that different moods/ feelings can be expressed. for example, if a minor chord is used for a certain key, the melody would sound sad, and if a major chord is used, it'll sound happier. yup. quite nice, but she asked me to write everything, including the inversions in roman numerals, which i dont like. she says that it is so that i'd get a hang of it. dunno. the chords that i wrote for homework were mostly correct, but all at the wrong timing. haha. i'll just admit that i'm not really good at timings and beats and rhythms. so i dont think i can become a good drummer, cos surely out of timing. haha. especially if there's a dotted quaver, then my timing surely wrong already. haha. i better work on it.

right now i'm sort of still contemplating whether i should go for the hangten and watsons interview. maybe just go lar, but i really really dont want to work on saturdays and sundays. they're my most important days. they're the only days i get to socialise. hopefully if i get employed, my manager/supervisor would let me work five days a week. really really hope. pleeease.. i'm still waiting for times to call me and shoes. i seriously prefer working there compared to watsons and hangten. i think i'm a little to choosy about jobs. actually i cant afford to be chooosy cos i havent even collected my o level results yet, and i'm not even 17. instead, i should be grateful if a company employs me.

my dad going to las vegas tomorrow. actually today cos it's 12+ already. this means that i can use comp late into the night without waiting for him! yay! haha. quite mean. flight's at 6am. so early. he has to wake up at 4 but i purposely set the alarm at 345. chuckles. hopefully he doesnt gamble cos 9 out of ten people lose money. as vivian balakrishnan[i think] says, it's a source of entertainment, and not a source of money making. the only people who earn money are the casino company and the government. that's true isn't it. i think the reason why people gamble is for the thrill of it. imagine loosing like hundreds or even thousands of dollars just to be thrilled or excited. its just not worth it. despite of all these, people still continue streaming into casinos, each time in hope that they'd win a fortune. but this seldom happens, and the same applies to buying toto, 4d and horse race betting. i'd rather save my money and use it to clothes and shoes, and more clothes and shoes, and buy my mummy a frank muller watch with diamonds. hah. loooks like i've got work very hard and forget about my clothes and shoes. hee. i think i'll have to settle for those 3 for $10 clothes from the market. hahahahaa. they're really ugly. perhaps i should try to start liking them so that buying would not be so difficult. haa. what crap.

oh yes! it's Grace's 17th birthday today. so haappy birthday and God Bless!

TheServant

5:58 PM

sigh.sigh. actually today supposed to go ikea with sherilyn. but then got stupid piano lessons so cannot go. sigh. i really need to go out. havent really gone out for dunno how many days already. cant stand bring cooped up at home. go market also good enough. so shitty. argh! i really really really really really want to go out. hopefully a miracle would happen so that i can go out NOW! NOW NOW NOW. NOW. maybe tomorrow going back to school to visit teachers, malay stall auntie, and eat the canteen food. how i really miss them. especially my mee soto. yum. *lick my lips* then also going nyp and ngee ann open house, and also tp for interview. but these are for the next few days. i want to go out now. now now now now now. right now, going to be the market or ntuc would be good enough, like i said. sigh. i really hate this feeling. i think i'm going to be senile soon. perhaps the youngest person in the world to become senile. which is why i need to go out. there's also no one to talk to the whole day. my dog? can, but i wouldnt get an answer. i cant possibly talk to myself right. this is really shitty. and i'm currently umemployed. sigh. sigh. sigh. i dont feel like having piano lessons today. why cant it be other day? i need to get out of my house. sigh. sigh. dunno what i'm supposed to do. sickening. sickening. sickening. shitty. argh. somebody please help me.

TheServant

5:37 AM

all i can say today is, ARRGGGHHHH! bye :(

TheServant

3:28 PM

just came back from ccwp. playing with skill and pro people like ben sng, justin chan and tabitha. k la, at least they're skiller than i am. now i feel very lousy, but fortunately if i play wrongly, there's still a backup. haha. never really heard an electric guitar in cc. ben playing bass, justin playing electric guitar and tabby, keyboard. she made a comeback. yay! i think auntie lianteen's the cooolest drummer on earth. by looking at her, you wouldnt know that she plays drums. and she's the mature among everybody in the team. of course not that old la. heh. somemore can play those contemporary fast songs. not bad eh. then justin thaught her how to play ghost beat rythms. it's something that i learnt last night, but i dont know why it's called ghost beat. he says that drummers play it on all the odd beats, like 1 and 3. then ben said that in some songs, the time signature changes every half bar! hee. might as well dont count right. just anyhow play. at least that's what i'd do. alright. enough of all these. today also went to times to fill in application form. hopefull they'd call me soon so that i can go for an interview. i want it soon! going to times was a complete waste of time. why couldnt they do it online whatsoever, so that i wouldnt need to spend 45 minutes getting there and 45 minutes getting back! all the time we spent there was like 10 minutes. sigh. as though they're so low tech. tomorrow's finally saturday! finally there'll be more people to talk and listen to cos got cg. yayyyy! staying at home all day long causes one to get dementia. alright. i better get going. bye!

TheServant

3:45 PM

okay. it's more or less completed. hope it's nice. i realised i havent been writing on quite an irregular basis, like m. haha. seems like i write on alternate days. yesterday just found out that shulian, from my nafa class, is in the same og as kitson. haha. what a small world. not sure if he knows sarah. singapore's just too small. hee. this moring went to times centre to get application form. hopefully they'd call be, so that at leasst i'll have something to do. one the way home saw this indian man waving to nobody. maybe he's crazy or something. yesterday found my bugs bunny water bottle which we bought in gold coast australia when i was in primary 2. yes! around 8-9 years ago. hah. luckily it's still quite in a good shape. alright. better go. many people ask me to write them a testimonial on friendster. better do it now before i become busy. bye!
oh and happy birthday, shoes!

TheServant

6:49 AM

okay! just changed the pictures of this blog. it's cos i was sick of the old one, and also to add more colour to the blog. i think it's quite nice, but if you have any suggestions or know of any ways to enhance it, do let me know! i'd be most glad! having a terrible neck and back ache right now. cant even tilt my head backwards. so painful. alright. bye!

TheServant

3:35 PM

just came home from collecting my specs and fetching my sis from school. i can finally see clearly. yay! today i dont think i'd me typing much cos i accidentally my forth finger on my left hand last night. quite painful. wonder how am i going to play this fri. but i think it should heal quite fast. after all i always get injured, and i'm quite immune to them already. haha. i dunno how i slept last night, now i think i sprained my neck, on the left side. i can turn my head to the right by 90 degrees, but can turn to the left by only less than forty five degrees before it starts hurting. ouch! it was an irony cos the pillow i used last night was those which would prevent one from getting a sprained neck. i doubt the problem lies with the pillow, but rather, with me. loos like even i sleep wrongly. how shibai can i be. haha. now i know how come i always feel lethargic during the day. it's cos i didnt sleep properly, which causes me to wake up many times during the night. anyway, i hope some company would employ me, most preferbly bookshops. actually i dont mind working in far east flora. but have to work during the new year period which i dont want. who wants right? and i also cant miss cg on saturdays. it's just too important, and a commitment. so i must really hope for a job that has a five day work week, like in the civil service. oh yes! i suddenly thought of it. maybe i should consider being a teacher. it has a lot of benefits. like teachers can book a chalet at a very low price, and can enjoy low canteen food prices, as compared to that of a food court. not bad not bad. furthermore, if one becomes a pe teacher, he/she can wear shorts and t shirt to school everyday. isnt it just great? that's what i like to wear the most. can save money on buying skirts and blouses. also, there's teachers' day, youth day and if one teaches in a pri school, there's even children's day as a school holiday, on top of the usual school holiday. yay! maybe i should become an art and pe teacher, like miss ong. it's quite good. ok. i better stop thinking about all these when i havent even collected my o level results. sigh.

TheServant

7:44 AM

okay! i just changed my blog's pictures. it's because i want something new and also to add more colour to the page. yup. i think it's quite nice, but if you have any comments, please let me know. i'd be most glad! i'm having a terrible neck and back ache. cant tilt my head backwards. very painful. alright. i'm off!

TheServant

3:30 AM

today's quite a chickeny day. haha. i had chicken rice at amk for lunch and had marinated broiled chickenwings for dinner. i dont think i want to eat chicken for the next two days. but of course if there's nothing else to eat, i'd eat it. today had piano lessons. quite fun. we did improvisations. yup. managed to choose the right chords and at the right beat. yups. i thought the D flat major one was quite difficult but it turned out good. the chord progression was I, III, IV, V. very nice. yayy! quite proud of myself. before piano lesson folded boxes with yati. so tedious. had to tear out pages of the old tunglok magazine then folded boxes for putting bones. as you know, or if you didnt know, the restaurant 'my humble house' is part of the tunglok group. yes, the magazine was printed with the different dishes which tunglok serves. haha. like mussels with dunno what, braised lobster with dunno what sauce, scallop with dunno what sauce, jackfruit with sorbet and many other cheem kind of food. and the presentation was super nice. made my mouth water. i'm sure miss jessie yeo would give them full marks if the chefs attended her class. nah, it's more like she attends their class. then i kept asking my maid if she knew how to cook those. stupid right. obviously she doesnt. but i asked her to go and learn. haha. i thought the desserts were the best. cos the best part of a meal is always the dessert, followed by the soup, ingredients[meat], and finally the rice. sigh. when can i go there and eat? i want to go to the esplanade branch. i think i'll only go there when i earn my own money, and i'd buy the cheapest dish. haha. cheapo right? what do you expect? oh, by the way, to ice cream lovers out there, if you ever buy ice cream, try not to buy the brand la cremeria. cos i've got a feeling they use a lot of food colouring, which is not good for the body. when you eat thr chocolate flavoured one, your mouth and tongue would turn brown, just like eating chupachups graffiti. and the vanilla flavoured one is too creamy. if you eat too much, you'd feel sick. what i advise you to buy is if you have the cash, go for ben and jerry's. it's good. and has nice names to go with it. however it's one the more costly side. otherwise, for an icecream person like me, i'd just buy the ntuc brand one. although it's not that nice as compared with ben and jerry's, it's more economical. yup. alrights. i better go eat my icecream now. yayy! bye!

TheServant

1:34 PM

i'm thinking of changing blogskins. getting quite sick of this current one, although this blog hasnt been around for a long time. you know, i get bored quite easily, so i constantly need change. yup. i'm too lazy to loook for blogskins so if you chance upon one that you think i'd like, tell me k. thanks!

TheServant

9:59 AM

heh. now's the second time i'm blogging. just came home from dinner with joy, serena, melissa and abigail after cg. i felt a bit weird after cell. i dunno why also. anyway, we talked a lot of crap during dinner, and at time became quite intellectual. quite interesting hearing them argue their point or express themselves. i didnt say much though. as you know, i'm a person of a few words. i only speak when necessary[at times. haha]. took bus home with abigail. i dont really, or rather i hate walking into my estate alone at night, especially cos i've to walk past the park and there'd always be indian/bangladashi/pakistani/whatever workers lurking in the dark. sometimes i cant really see them from a distance cos they're dark and still wear dark clothes. i think i'm being quite racist here, but it i'm just stating a fact. sometimes i see them holding hands and walking together. it's not surprising for me to think that they're gay whatsoever due to the fact that i hear and read a lot about gay these days. anyway, i dont think that housing estates are places that these workers should congregate. dont they have their own living quarters somewhere? not that i'm being mean or anything, i feel that sometimes they bring insecurity to residents even at a place they call home. i also dont think it'd be something new if they're convicted of burglery in this area. after all they might desperately be in need of something. since most of them, i guess, are not very educated, their employes must take the intiative to tell them and try to provide them with things that they need. but then again, perhaps it's time to think of their welfare as well. some of come from third world countries and might not be treated very well by their employers, or they just want some time to themselves. maybe they've just lost a loved one in the recent tsunami, so we should sympathise with them. whatever it is, they're still humans after all. therefore, they should not be discriminated by the majority race. i must honestly confess that i'm guilty of that so i must change. yes, change. as usual, this is written in my perspective so if you dont agree with what i said, just ignore it. alright. enough said about this topic. yup. i'm now eating my second dinner. just now had prata with serena. now eating glass noodle/ rice vermicilli/tanghoon with soup and fishball. at least it's not as greasy and fattening as the prata. so it's quite alright. heh. yay. i'm quite happy. managed to keep to my new year's resolution for five days now. i shall say what they are here cos there're quite a number of them. but i do hope and i will try to keep to them as best as i can. yay. i suddenly realised that all my past entries, including this one havent been paragraphed properly. so from the next entry onwards, i'm going to paragraph them. but for this one, i shall continue writing it in one whole chunk. haha. okay. i shall stop here. have to continue eating my second dinner. yup. bye!

TheServant

1:13 PM

this morning i went to the optician cos last night my specs broke at 3 am when i woke up. haha. yes, it was exactly 3am, ignoring the seconds. found out that the disparity between both my eyes is 200. according to the optician, it's quite a lot. so now my left eye is 550 degrees and right is 350. i got new glasses. it's rectangularish, or a better word to discribe it is angular. yup. quite nice lar. the first one that mum chose was too big, which made me look like some idiot. haha. so the assistant assisted me in choosing one that is smaller as i was indeed in need of assistance. hah. what a funny sentence. alright. i better get back to my book. yeps. went to the library yesterday. borrowed three books, two of which are by the same author. the other one is about home decor and colour scheme. nice books. at least i can get an idea of how my future studio apartment would look like. if you every ask why i want to live in a one room studio apartment by myself, my reason is that i like solitude. not that i'm anti social or anything, it's just that i like being alone at home. yup. of course friends are always cordially invited. heh. i've yet to decide on the colour scheme of my house. i thought that cream, plum and deep plum would be nice, sweet and feminine. but since when have i been feminine? hah. or maybe i should use bright summer colours like orange and yellow, with a tinge of green. after all, it's summer all year long in singapore. anyway, all these can be decided on in a few years time. however it's good to start early. meanwhile, as i said earlier, it's time to get back to my book, entitled 'what happened to lani garner' by carol plum-ucci. it's quite a weird book. well, at least the characters are, and it has quite a creative plot. bye! wish me happpy reading! hehh.

TheServant

6:01 AM

it's finally friday.yup. it ha indeed been a week of bordom. didnt do much the whole week, except doing household chores and becoming maid number two. sigh. it has also been a very lonely week, as everyone in my house as school or work to go to, except me. so there's no one to talk to, but myself. alright. i shall not carry on wallowing in self-pity. instead i should be thankful that i'm still alive and have a roof over my head. yup. looking at the painting of a sunrise by stephen hannock on the back of a readers' digest book in front of me also makes me grateful that even the sun rises and brings light to the world. yay! okay. i better be off. bye!

TheServant

6:25 AM

hah! at least today's quite an 'un-boring' day. helped my maid to pull out the weeds and then mowed the backyard. was a bit tiring cos it's on a slope. now i understand how tough farmer's life is. so we should be appreciative and thankful for our rice and veggies. yup. i should say all these to myself. then in the afternoon i met up with shoes and jing and went to crash sajc. whoa! it's super far. at harbour front. we took around one hour to get there. met jade and also say the scholars charlene and guna[i think]. not sure of his name. didnt do much. just walked around the school and watched them do their orientation stuff. left at about four plus. didnt do much though. but at least i did something and it was quite productive. i meant the grass cutting. haha.

TheServant

10:13 AM

sigh. today's day 3 of being bored at home. but at least i've tried my very best not to waste my time away. i've been helping my maid do household chores and been looking for a temporary job. the only one that has a chance of employing me is the sticker distributer company. it's one of the many companies that i called who bothered picking up their phone call. anyway, the sticker company would call to inform me if i got the job. the job's pretty simple, but it's physically tiring. all we have to do is to paste the company sticker on people's door bells, and for a measly $3 per block!! what is this. as jacq puts it, it's a 'you-dare-to-say-i-dont-dare-to-listen' kind of concept. so let me consider it. i know the employers would be laughing their heads off if i agreed to do this. all the other employers i called only accept people who are 18 and above. how dare they look down on a 16 turning 17 person like me? haha. who knows i might be more capable than them!! my ego suddenly inflates. poke a hole, and poof! it deflates as suddenly as it inflated and i'm back to myself again. rright.

TheServant

4:13 PM

gosh. i really really really miss school. i bet xinmin misses my presence too. haha. how i wish i could go back there and be a student there again! i just heard the latest updates about xms from fifi. we all know that mr j lim's now the vice principal. these are what i just heard. mr h singh is now the discipline master, miss yak is now maths level head and sls teacher in-charge. mrs lim hh is new hod of humanities and business studies. mrs yim left for north vista, i think. mr tan ph left for catholic high and is now teaching my bro physics!! what a coincidence. i bet marya would be very proud of 'you know who' when she hears the news. hearing this makes me even more want to go to school! arrgghhhhhh! now i'm starting to miss homework and lectures which i used to detest. oh dear. i wantttt schooooooooooooll!!! i want xinmin!!!!! it's the bestt school, if you didnt know that. oh yes. after the o level results, there're many places that i want to go, if i'm given a chance to. firstly, i hope to go to innova or catholic jc, but i'm not sure if i cant make it there. or else i'd like to go to temasek poly design school and take visual communication and photo journalism as an elective. or i'd like to go to nanyang poly's school of health sciences and take dentistry. perhaps i could also go to ngee ann poly to take horticulture and landscape designing. other course that i'm interested in include architecture, interior designing, and even furniture design, if such a course exists. putting all these things aside, now i really want to go to school, which is obviously impossible. bleah.

TheServant

1:20 PM

hey peoples! if you've noticed, this is my first entry of the year, although it's already the third day of 2005. yes! maybe you didnt realise it, but it's already 2005. most students start school today, with the exception of me. you see, the reason is that i dont want to go to a jc. not that i wont fit in there, it's simply cos i want something different. i want a different environment, somewhere where i'll only learn what i like to learn which would affect my future. but then again, if i dont go to a jc, i'd definitely miss learning subjects like maths, chemistry, physics, geog, hist, and also miss wearing school uniforms which i like. however i'm willing to forgo these things to do what i really really like and have a passion for. this way, you'll be happy and enjoy what you're learning, which increases the chance of exceling. sometimes we dont have to follow the conventional route that most people take. some people wont enjoy what they are doing cos that path is not for them, and would end up forcing themselves to learn what they do not like or what they're not good at. finally, they get too stressed up and have suicidal thoughts. heh. i think i'm getting out of point. so lets get back to the story. actually i'm not sure what course i'd take if i go to a poly. i have always had thoughts of working in a hospital or in the medical sector, so i'm considering taking up dentistry in nanyang poly. however, i also have an interest in arts and design, so i might consider graphic designing, visual communication, interior designing, architecture, and even horticulture and landscape designing. although this leaves me with many choices to choose from, i feel that making a decision would be rather difficult. next, i'd have to choose which poly to go. i guess the one which would be at the top of my list would be nyp. hopefully it has the courses that i want to take. but of course if other polys have the course that i'm interested in, i'd definitely go there. distance is also a factor, which is why nyp is my obvious top choice. ok, i shall end here.

NOTE: this entry is written in a self-centred point of view. if you dont agree what is written, just ignore it. afterall, it's my blog.

bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TheServant

6:33 AM

okay peeps. this is my LAST entry for the year 2004. but not to worry, i'll still continue next year, so stay tuned!!
heh. this year has indeed been a busy one for me. cos this is the year which i took yet another important exam. quite a lot of hardwork was pput into it [i guess]. many hours were spent in school, and some of us even stayed till eight at night to do last minute clarifications on physics concepts which we've yet to master. it was also a year of fun and laughter. the cheapos had a great time being cheapo, childish, irritating, loud, thrifty, healthy and shitty together. yup. it was fun. very fun. sometimes in the bus i think about such occasions and would tend to smile to myself. people would think i'm mad. haha. but who cares. oh and marya and i had a great time trying to be punctual together. and of course, we succeed everytime, especially pe lessons. we always beat the 4e3 girls in arriving at the pe venue first and we'd try to be the most helpful by helping miss lim to get pe equipment. it's actually my responsibility to do so cos i was sports leader but marya wasnt obliged to. after pe we'd run back to class so that we'd be the first to arrive for the next lesson, which is always geography. or a group of us would run to the canteen, buy drinks and sneak them into class. we never got caught.heee. so fun. but wait till mr tan checks the waste paper basket. 4e6 peeps would know what i mean cos we got chased out of our air conditioned classroom and into a terribly dusty classroom. so dusty that even the fishes we kept in our class pond died. first time a sec four class got chased out in xinmin's entire sec four history. you see? 4e6 is the best!! indeed. yay!
oh and there was homecoming day. we had very purpleful time painting our class banner for our stall. many of us became purple monsters. i am exaggerating here. but it was quite fun.hah
the last day of school was sad, cos it came too suddenly due to some reasons which i do not wish to write here as it involves soem people. but it was nice. many of us brought our digicams and i took 100plus pictures. pictures of classmates, schoolmates, teachers and even the school atttendents and malay stall auntie which i made friends with. so exciting!!!!!
and yes, not to forget track, the cca which i've been since sec1. although we didnt win many trophies, i thoroughly enjoyed all the training sessions with mr hardev singh and mr yam. i'm going to miss the track members, especially the 4times 100 metres relay girls, qian ling, siti, suhaila and huimin. i loved the time when we went to the moe centre to train. we ran up and down the hill like mad. it was tiring, but it sort of bonded us a little. yup. track's good!!
now i'd like to thank all the teachers in xinmin for teaching and nurturing me. they are:
sec1: mrs ng, mrs thang, mrs song, mr subani, mr ang[old], mr ng, mrs yeap, miss jessieyeo, miss lim, mdm tian, miss teo, miss tan.
sec2: miss abey, mr ng, miss annieyeo, mr lim, mr ng, mr singh, mr loo, miss tan, miss mazna, miss yeo, mrs yeap, miss ong, mr jackson ng.
sec3: mr tan, hualaoshi, mrs teo, mrs koh, mdm sai, miss yak, mr ang[young], mdm ee, mrs tan, miss lim, mr sharma
sec4: mr tan, hualaoshi, mrs teo, mr tanPH, mr chia, mrs lim, mdm sai, mrs tan, mr pah, miss lim
thanks teachers!

now let me explain why this entry is in red. firstly, since it's we're about to usher in the new year, it's respectful to use red, just like when VIPs or guests of honour attend a function. it's only formal that they walk on a red carpet. so instead of a red carpet, the same concept applies here.
the second reason is that in the chinese culture, the colour red signifies, good luck, prosperity and good health in the new year. although it's not chinese new year yet and i dont really believe in such things, it's just another reason to add here. haha. finally the last reason is that this morning i had a big cut on my foot and bright red blood gushed out of the wound, hence the colour of this entry.

yup. i shall now officially end my last entry of the year. a big thank you to all the readers who even bother to read and tag my blog. *applause**applause*

alrights. till the year 2005, have a good day!

happy new year!

TheServant

11:30 AM

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