i was so ashamed,all alone and so far away. but now i know that He's been waiting for this day..

sigh.sigh. actually today supposed to go ikea with sherilyn. but then got stupid piano lessons so cannot go. sigh. i really need to go out. havent really gone out for dunno how many days already. cant stand bring cooped up at home. go market also good enough. so shitty. argh! i really really really really really want to go out. hopefully a miracle would happen so that i can go out NOW! NOW NOW NOW. NOW. maybe tomorrow going back to school to visit teachers, malay stall auntie, and eat the canteen food. how i really miss them. especially my mee soto. yum. *lick my lips* then also going nyp and ngee ann open house, and also tp for interview. but these are for the next few days. i want to go out now. now now now now now. right now, going to be the market or ntuc would be good enough, like i said. sigh. i really hate this feeling. i think i'm going to be senile soon. perhaps the youngest person in the world to become senile. which is why i need to go out. there's also no one to talk to the whole day. my dog? can, but i wouldnt get an answer. i cant possibly talk to myself right. this is really shitty. and i'm currently umemployed. sigh. sigh. sigh. i dont feel like having piano lessons today. why cant it be other day? i need to get out of my house. sigh. sigh. dunno what i'm supposed to do. sickening. sickening. sickening. shitty. argh. somebody please help me.

TheServant

5:37 AM