i was so ashamed,all alone and so far away. but now i know that He's been waiting for this day..

so when am i going to get my letter mr postman? argh. i cant stand this suspense, but neither do i want that day to come. you see, it's the release of the o level results. no one knows when it'll be. hopefully not tomorrow. i'd rather it be on monday. yeaps. but it'll come soon. i really dont know how i'd do. after the papers last year i felt that i would do alright, cos the maths and science, ss and geog papers were quite alright. but now i feel totally opposite from what i felt last year. darn. maybe it's just natural thing to feel this way. bleah. anyway, i better not think about this too much. just the other night i dreamt that i scored d7 for art. thank God i woke up soon enough and realised that it was all a dream. whew. last night's dream was better. i dreamt that i went to vietnam for a holiday. then i went motorbike racing on a scrambler. so cool right. we were racing on mud and the weird thing was that there were oysters in the mud and there was a pearl in each one of them. i heard that kobe pearls are the best pearls, but i never had any interest in any of them. so anyway, in my dream, there's this very huge rollercoaster beside our hotel. it's not those ordinary kind where people sat in the seats with solid seatbelts. in this roller coaster, people had to stand in the carriages and hold on to the sides of it. they had no limits to the number of people in one carriage, so long as everyone was tightly squeezed and could hardly move. this is so that we wouldnt fall out when the carriage turns upside down. so now you see, i always dream of weird things. really weird things. i also dream of people dying, especially my friends. i shall not name who, but i dream of them being executed. it's very grotesque. yup. oh. i think i've got a new mole on my leg. it's just a small one. not that obvious. heh. okies. i better end here. bye!

TheServant

5:51 AM