i was so ashamed,all alone and so far away. but now i know that He's been waiting for this day..

indeed, a series of unfortunate events.

today, yet another fish died for no apparent reason. no wreaths please. so i asked my maid to help me get it out cos i'm scared of dead fishes that are floating on water. i think it all started a few years ago when a koi in the pond died and somebody left it on the grass for one day. the next morning, the was covered with maggots and flies, and because it was humid and the fish was damp, the fish looked as if it was decomposing. so totally gross. the stench's not for those with weak stomachs. ironically, i'm not afraid of the dead fishes you see in markets. sigh. maybe i'm just not fated to keep fish. i'm just an amatuer. anyway, the water was quite green because of the growth of algae. got my maid, again, to help me siphon out 30% of the water. see? i've learnt my lesson. and as a precautionary measure, i decided to fill the pot with filtered water. according to the label on the brita box, it says that by filtering, it would reduce the amount of chlorine in tap water, remove tiny particles and reduce metallic impurities [in my own words]. i figured that since the water was fit for human consumption, the fishes wouldnt die so easily in this water condition. after all, goldfish are quite hardy creatures. it was tedious work man. the amount filtered each time is only a fraction of that of the pond. so imagine how many times i ran in and out of the house. and time consuming as well, as the water only streamed out from the filter from four little holes, each only about 2-3mm in diameter. anyway, all my effort was all worth it when i saw that the fishes were swimming gleefully around, and had no sign of bloatedness or stiffness like the other time. chlorine poisoning!!! at least they did not jump out of the pot, unlike my class guppies who jumped out of the tank and into the sink [we were in the toilet changing water]. it was quite funny actually. some poor fish even went down into the sink hole.

all the fishes died except one goldfish who survived the whole ordeal. soon, he graduated from a fish tank to a water feature. the water feature was like a small pond, with a little fountain to aerate the water. it was given to us by the OMs, namely mr kam and mr lim, or better known to the cheapo gang as lifty and shifty. know why their called lifty and shifty? beacause they are the school's operations managers. sometimes, if they dont have anything to do, they'd move the school's furniture [like the yellow tables and the sofas] around so that they'd look busy. and they. especially mr kam, also thinks that he always moves the furniture to the best position. the next day, if he isnt satisfied with the position, he'd shift them back again. if you still dont understand why they're called lifty and shifty, it's because when you move things, you have to lift them, and shift them. that's why. the names came from happy tree friends and we thought it suited them perfectly. haha. they also had a lot of problems with our class. however after all, it was still the guys' fault. you see, they liked to throw the key onto the wall. one day, the key broke and whenever we wanted to open our classroom door, we had to look for them. and whenever we asked them to open the door for us, mr kam wold also tell us how much trouble we've cause him bla bla and always threatened that that would be the last time he opens the door for us. but there was never a last time cos as i said, he always tells us the same thing. anyway, back to my water feature story. i digressed so much. it was given to our class by them cos they found it in a storeroom. as usual, they were trying to act kind. i hope the oms dont read this. har har. so the lone fish spent the rest of the days swimming aimlessly in the little pond. every now and then, heidi would bring her two terrapins, tic and tac to join that lil fish in the pond. [now only tac is left cos she lost tic in a bus].

finally, it isnt known what happened to the little goldfish. it was due to the sudden announcement of the closure of school for graduating classes. thus, in the midst of clearing the rubble in our classroom, the fish was forgotten. i think the school attendants took the fish home. or maybe the oms took it away. or maybe it died. sad ending for a little fish right. but i'm sure the goldfish led a good life in our classroom together with us. it provided us a good source of entertainment, and i'm sure it had great company, us. three cheers for 4e6, and our surviving lil' goldfish, named dorothy.

TheServant

3:05 PM

this morning, a dreadful thing happened. one of the ten new golfish that i bought died. unlike the previous time, i did not call the police to issue us a death certificate. instead, my maid said that she ate it cos it was very fresh. *gulp* sigh. i hope the rest of the nine goldfish wouldnt die so soon. not until they're in their twilight years. not till they're fat and heavy. my goldfish are quite shy little things. they dont even dare to swim to the surface to eat. they've to wait till the food sinks to the bottom of the pot before they eat. if not, they're contented just sucking up the algae at the bottom and sides of the pot. maybe i'm too scary. you know, like a giant. but according to the goldfish owner's manual, they need some getting used to. so that should be the reason. not as if i'm a monster right. har. oh ya, i also learnt that when the water needs changing, we should only siphon out 30 percent of the water. also, before putting in the water, it should be left overnight so that the chlorine would evaporate. i think all my goldfish and class guppies died of chlorine poisoning. sad eh. no wonder all our guppies jumped out of the tank when we filled it with tap water. initially we thought the water temperature wasnt right. but now i know. this is called experience, and we should learnt form it. under my hands, many fishes died. form guppies to goldfish and even longkang fish. poor little things.

this morning i found a tiny water snail in my goldfish pot. therefore, i can conclude that it is the one who ate the leaves of the water hycinth and water lettuce. but at least i got rid of you, you idiot! i hope you dry and die out in the sun, although it's quite gloomy today. i really really hate snails. they're like phlegm that moves on their own. totally gross. i mentioned this before. when you pour salt onto them, they foam, and eventually wither and die. sometimes their flesh becomes liquid and you can literally pour them out. scientifically, the reason why they seem to foam is due to osmosis. unlike our skin, their skin acts as a semi permeable membrane. the addition of salt changes the osmotic balance across the membrane. as the salt content in the snail is lower than the concentration of salt poured onto it, the water concentration is higher. and since osmosis occurs when water moves from an area of higher concentration to that of a lower one, water rushes out of the snail's cells to make things equal. hence, the snail dehydrates and soon, withers off and dies. this is why they look as if the're foaming. poor things right. but who cares. they're snail and pests anyway. and i hate them. just a few days ago i saw a couple of them being squashed by a vehicle in a carpark. haha. serves them right.

TheServant

8:20 AM

i need tricep and abdominal workouts. the reason's simple. i'm getting fat! and that's a fact! the scientific name for our tricep muscles are called brachialis, the brachii and the pronator teres. but their know as tricep muscles in simpler terms. many older folks refrain from clapping too hard or wearing sleeveless shirts because of the jiggling jelly that bounces under their arms.

they're indeed a much dreaded underarm dilemma.

so i checked out some websites and here are some ways you can shed off that blob of jelly.

dumbbell kickbacks
try these standing. place one arm on your knee at a slightly bent over posture. with your free hand, take your dumbbell [with a manageable weight] and hold it to the side of your hip. your elbow should be bent and aligned with your body.then slowly, raise your arm behind you in an upward motion. as you do this, your elbow and your arm straightens out. raise your arm until it is parallel to the floor and your arm is completely straight. squeeze your arm during the contraction for a second or two, then slowly bring your weight your down to your side. repeat the motion for 3 sets of 10-12 repeatitions on each arm.

i think i'd only type one la. too lazy to type, aafter such a tiring day.

today's the day which i went to moe for the stupid interview. on the whole it was ok, just that they noticed that a lot of stuff on my testimonial and on my cca record were sports and athletics stuff and kept questioning why i chose to go for this art teacher thing and bla bla bla. it was super irritating. why can't they accept the darn fact that one can be good at two things. [harhar] and it's also cos track and field was my cca. and the outdoor adventure and kayaking are just part of the training regime and activities. it's also part of my community involvement programme. if i did not join track, i think my now i'd be some stupid kuku who joined art club in secondary school. by the way, it used to be for dropouts. so let me ask what's wrong with me joining all these sports stuff? so what really is it that they expect form me? or rather, from us? why is always to easy to see the negative side of things? dont they expect teachers to be all rounders as well? surely they won't want teachers who cant do anything besides drawing and painting right? they jolly well be plain idiots. oh and i can't stand the interviewers, especially the chairman. she's so darn irritating. keep giving me the stupid smirk on her face, as if her questions are so intelligent, and as though nobody can make it to the rank she's holding now. i hate these kind of people. k la. i dont want to talk about this anymore. if not all my xiang words will soon sprout. i think i need anti irritants. someone please formultae it please.

i have another thing to complain about. it's about golden mile complex. i shall say this once and for all. i vow not to return to that place ever again. you see, that place can be described with just one word, and that is, filthy. once you step out of the car in the carpark, you can already smell the stench of the bins. cos the management stupidly put the bins at the staircase lobbies. the whole building's dimly lit as well. the wooden railings are falling apart, the floors are slimy and the gaps in between the floor tiles are already black. goodness gracious. how can this be a building in singapore? i thought only malaysia had this kind of buildings. now you see how much i dont like malaysia. i think the complex's airconditioning and ventilators are also spoilt. you can smell the toilet, the thai spices, the food [some of which i presume has turned bad], body odour of thai workers all mixed into one. just you imagine how the smell would be like. indeed, an aroma. i'm not condeming thais here. it's just that the building's horrible. i'm a clean freak.[did i mention neat?] the only thing that's nice is the beef noodles, minus the cow stomach, intestines et cetera. i like the thai chilli powder too. it's lovely.

yes, did i mention about their salad? it comprises of raw bean sprouts and another raw veggie, better known to me as grass. you call this salad? i dont think even cows would eat it. again, i'm not trying to discriminate thais, but just that some food are just not to my liking, like say, veggies, and not to mention raw ones. of course, other thai dishes are lovely, like the mango salad, mango and glutinous rice and durian with glutinous rice. they're simply heavenly. thailand's a relatively nice place to go to. with beautiful pristine beaches, crystal clear water [eco-tourism, i learnt in geography]. also, one can get imitation branded stuff like oakley sunglasses for just a couple of bahts. yup yup.

as i sat in bus 86 on my way home, i couldnt help but eavesdrop a conversation from a sec one boy and a sec3 girls from a certain secondary school. the guy, openly asked the girl to be his stead!! and i was like oh my goodness oh my goodness. the guy said ' you're a nice girl. very nice. i this kind of people very good one, tut tut one'. then the girl said 'but you're two years younger than me! ' the boy blushed. i dont know where he got the courage to openly announce in public that he was a repeat student in primary 6. i dunno why some people just dont feel embarrassed. heh.

TheServant

1:12 PM

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this is my grandmother

her name is ahma

she likes food,

but maybe not laksa

she is about 80plus

as we all know,

women dont reveal their age

but of course,

at a glance,

she definitely doesnt look 20 plus

she has eyes so small

that one can hardly see them

when she smiles

she has special teeth

they're called dentures

but she never shows them,

much

i think,

she used to help her husband

sell duck in chinatown

oh,

and not forgetting pig trotters too

though i've never tried them

i guess they must tasted lovely

if you listened hard enough

you can hear her burp

not too loud and not too soft

all so,

cos she's my ahma

three cheers for ahma

hip hip hurray

TheServant

2:42 AM

*ahem* *ahem* *ahem* *ahem* *testing 123*

ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls,

today, it is indeed my greatest honour to share with you my encounter with 'stupidity'. it all happened on the 22nd day of march. the year was 2005. like all days, the day began when the glorious sun rose from the east. flowers bloomed and birds chirped to the tune of 'who killed cocky robin'. however, unlike all days, it was a morning where i felt unusually helpful. little did i know that eight precious little wiggly squiggly innocent lives were at stake. after my daily dose of bread and milo, i headed out to my garden, in hope of trying to do my eight little goldfish a favour. all of a sudden, the earth shook violently and as sudden as the earth trembled, there was a bright light above me. my maid said that it was a halo, and i totally believed her. then i asked her to help me catch the fishes. You see, I’m scared of fishes, especially when they’re alive. Next, we took out ALL the water from the pot, and this is when ‘stupidity’ came along. We started filling the pot with water from the hose till it was about half full. Or is it half empty? Anyway, we then poured the fishes back in.

half an hour later, I returned to see how the fishes were coping in their cleaner environment. That was when I noticed one of the fish’s stomach was bloated, and it didn’t seem to be moving. Soon, a couple of the other fishes were becoming bloated as well, and like the first fish, they became motionless. Darn, I thought to myself. So I used the spout of the watering can from Ikea to touch them. If they were alive and well, they’d swim away. However, they didn’t. okay, I thought might be they were sleeping, so I left them alone. although some part of me half suspected that they were dead, I still left them alone. Now I was getting real scared. As I mentioned earlier, I was messing with eight dear little lives.

*ahem* *excuse me* *some saliva in my throat*

After lunch, I came back and to my horror, all the goldfish were floating. And like duh, they were all dead. shucks. So I decided to call in the police, and the coroner’s court classified it as unnatural death. Firstly, they couldn’t have drowned cos obviously they were fish, and secondly, there wasn’t like any sharks in the pot.

I sat in a corner, put on my thinking cap and reflected upon my actions. I realised I was the cause of their death. I killed them. Darn. Darn. Scientifically, it was due to the chlorine in the tap water that caused their death. So maybe I didn’t kill them after all. But since I was the one who put tap water into it, I killed them. Alright. So this is my brief encounter with stupidity. I sincerely hope you enjoyed it. Thank you.

*audience stands up*

*claps* *claps*

TheServant

2:26 AM

right. i got posted into my first choice. but i still aint sure if i really really like it. now there's still this nie teaching as a career interview thing that i've got to go to. argh. reallly hate going for interviews, especially at places that are super far away. and who says i ever want to be a teacher? maybe in future. but it's something that i cant decide now. bleah.

today i did something real stupid. and for that, i laugh at myself. harhar. it involves eight innocent little goldfish. [english says that for the same species of fish, one only has to write the singular of their name, like in this case, goldfish]. i shall not elaborate about what happened today due to some circumstances. maybe tommorrow would be a better day to share my stupidity to the world. so once again, i laugh at myself.

i cant wait for cg outing this saturday at mcritchie reservoir. so exciting. and we get to exchange food wiht one another. i've yet to think about what food i'd bring, but it's really disturbing to think about all the siang things that the others might bring. like salads. oh my goodness. especially those with celery and beetroot or the purple cabbage.

TheServant

10:39 AM

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i like standing alone and i'm not looking at you. hmpf!

TheServant

4:11 AM

look at my lovely nose! by the way, my name's tawn.

TheServant

4:10 AM

even though i've been a zebra all my life, i'm still not sure if i'm black with white stripes or white with black stripes.

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4:09 AM

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3:24 PM

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am i seeing double?

TheServant

3:23 PM

Daddy's taking us to the zoo tomorrow,
Zoo tomorrow, zoo tomorrow;
Daddy's taking us to the zoo tomorrow,
And we can stay all day.

cho: We're going to the zoo, zoo, zoo;
How about you, you, you?
You can come too, too, too;
We're going to the zoo, zoo, zoo.

See the elephant with the long trunk swingin'
Great big ears and a long trunk swingin'
Snuffin' up peanuts with the long trunk swingin'
And we can stay all day.

See all the monkeys, they're a scritch-scritch-scratchin'
Jumping around and scritch-scritch-scratchin'
Hangin' by their long tails (scritch-scritch-scratchin')
And we can stay all day.

There's a big black bear, he's a huff-huff-puffin'
Coat's too heavy, he's a-huff-huff-puffin'
Don't get too near the huff-huff-puffin'
Or You won't stay all day.

Well the seals in the pool all honk honk honkin'
Catchin' the fish and honk honk honkin'
Little tiny seals all (high pitched) honk honk honkin'
And we can stay all day.

(slower) Well we stayed all day and I'm gettin' sleepy,
Sittin' in the car gettin' sleep sleep sleepy,
Home already and I'm sleep sleep sleepy,
And we have stayed all day.alt.

cho: We've been to the zoo, zoo, zoo;
How about you, you, you?
You came too, too, too;
We're been to the zoo, zoo, zoo.

Mommy's taking us to the zoo tomorrow,
Zoo tomorrow, zoo tomorrow;
Mommy's taking us to the zoo tomorrow,
And we can stay all day.

TheServant

1:25 AM

i changed the blog song. it's now the ever so sweet sugar plum fairy song from the nutcracker, the musical. it was shown on arts central quite some time ago, like around 11pm. nice song eh. i almost wanted to put shanghai tan or yue liang dai biao wo de xin, also known as the moon represents my heart. but i decided against it as i wanted something light, and not something dramatic like shanghai tan. but i might play it one day. i recently fell in love with the song overture and music of the night, from the phantom of the opera. it alll started when sarah and i were playing the piano at the mph and we played overture so that we could scare timhan. it was quite funny. but anyway, that song soon got stuck in my mind. yeap. now i'm trying to play it on the piano. however it causes my little finger on both to feel painful cos the song's loud and dramatic, so got to press harder on the keyboard.

yesterday i measured my body mass index. [BMI] it's 15 point something. i'm not sure if it's high or low, but i heard that it's quite low. that's good! so now i can eat ice cream. but the bad news is that the news presenter said that a physically active person with a higher bmi is better off then a non active person with a lower bmi. this shows that i should eat more and exercise more. i'm getting real fat. like what heidi said in school, 'once past your lips, always on your hips'. this is so so so true. but not unless you're a hardcore gymmie. a gymmie is a person who visits the gym like everyday. he not only visits the gym, but also goes to the gym for a full body workout, plus cardio exercises. get the joke? it's not very funny anyway. just had this sudden surge or lameness.

i should start being a gymmie too.

but when will it start?

yay! we're eating pasta for dinner. and mum's going to buy roast duck. i think i'm going to be the chef tonight cos i doubt my maid knows what i'm talking about when i explained to her just now. might as well do it by myself right. heh. talking about eating, my dinner's going to be real fattening. imagine all the oil they use to roast the duck, and all the carbohydrates from the pasta. if one doesnt exercise, the carbohydrates would all turn into fats. sigh. this means more fats on my. i might look thin, but i believe there're people who are fat, but look thin. i remember grace telling me about the fat kind of think people. i'm one such example. dont argue with me.

i realised that in almost one in five posts, at least one part of the post would be about food, or being healthy. after four years being in track, i've been psychoed to exercise very regularly if not i'd feel very guilty. i used to train for two hours, three times a week. it might not seem much as compared to the trainings in other sports groups or in other schools, but it's already enough to make me feel guilty or uneasy if i dont exercise. having written so much, one might ask what my point is in this paragraph. the bottom line is, that, one should exercise regularly, not only to looks good, but also to freshen yourself, and feel good. it decreases the risk of one getting illnesses as one ages. unfortunately at this moment, i cant think of an example of an illness. oh, it decreases the risk of one getting senile or dementia.

believing in things that you cant see
that's faith.

the brightest star that shines on the darkest night
that's hope.

TheServant

11:14 AM

pooh's heffalump movie is a terrific show. the show's about pooh's gang, which comprises of tigger, piglet, rabbit, eeyore and pooh, journeying to seek out and capture the heffalumps which live in the heffalump hollow, which is the area adjacent to the 100-acre wood. roo, the most innocent one of the group ventures out on his own when he learnt that he cant come along, trying to prove himself to the rest. he's the first to encounter a heffalump, a very young one nicknamed lumpy, and learns that they also have a negative depiction of the pooh gang. gradually, both come to terms with the misleading conceptions and become good friends. a valuable lesson which can be learnt is that despite differences, whether it being shape, size or colour, one can still be good friends. i think the director daringly gave lumpy a british accent to show the distance between them. pooh and gang still had the american accent. on the whole, as i said, it's a terrific show. just that i didnt like the part where eeyore was made to carry all the unnecessary stuff that the rest brought along on his back. poor thing! this is called animal abuse! i'd recommend this show for those who have a taste for 'cuteness'. of these, i suppose many of which are girls cos i dont think guys would like watching this kind of winnie the pooh shows. i think they're better off watching bogeyman or something. harhar. lumpy and roo are characters that you simply cant help adoring. yay!

i finally finished drawing the draft for the cg t-shirt. spent a lot of time doing research on how to draw the stuff cos i want it to be perfect. these days i realised that everything i do, they must be perfect. yes, perfect is the word. maybe i've become a perfectionist. oh well, people do change as they age. by the way, if you have any nice fonts that you can write or from your computer that you'd like to have on the shirt, do let me know ya. and let me know soon! i dont like dragging things for too long. oh yes. if you've any colour or material preference, do let me know as well.

yesterday she asked if i want to be it. then i suddenly thought about the quote that mrs low ay nar shared with us during assembly one morning.

'to be or not to be, i am responsible' by shakespeare

you see, she's those very litty [literature] kind of people so once in a while she'll, share with us this kind of thing from novels that she read. but it got me thinking if i should really be it. mostly importantly, i've got to seek, consult, find, hear, and obey. beginning to think about it already. but it's quite exciting. see what He has to say to me.

i think the cheapos and some other class peeps are going to jurong to ice skate tomorrow. i'm not sure if i should go cos number one, i've got piano at 430, which neither late nor early. number two, i'm too lazy to move my bum out of my house. number three, i'm short of cash. number four, jurong is too far away and it's too expensive since i'm currently using the adult fare card. okay okay, i've got to confess that the most significant reason is that i'm too lazy. but other factors also contribute to the fact that i cant make it. i'm sorry guys. i really am sorry. hope to see you guys soon. one day we go out and have a makan session k. like maybe go back to xinmin and eat lormee or something. i love you guys! grace, hawa, heidi, jacq, marya! [in alphabetical order] we rock! but let's not rock until we puke out all our food k.

alright, i've got to go now. i'm getting tired. i think i've got some illnesss. i'm a hypochondriac.

TheServant

11:45 AM

yesterday cam back from orientation camp. it was quite alright, except that the food was a bit not very nice. during our last lunch, joy, jenna and i shared a packet of rice but we couldnt finish it. we ended up eating cup noodles instead. but again, that brand of noodles wasnt nice, but definitely better than the rice. the best food was the milo. the best milos in alll the camps. know why it was nice? it's cos sarah and i made it. hah. actually, the truth, which will prevail, is that we used one whole tin of milo each time, plus some sugar and some hl [high in calcium and low in lactose, the perfect balance of highs and lows] milk. there are also two cute girls in my group. their julia and phillida. took a pic of them walking behind jit. like daddy's girls. so cute right!!
when i came home, i slept for 17 hours. but it hasnt broken my record yet. my record is nineteen hours, after last year's yf camp. yay! it's like almost one whole day! sleeping is good. all the time. now i'm refreshed. but one minute later i'm going to feel tired. whatever. just finished helping weijin do her art pieces. hopefully i did them correctly. i think they're nice and cute. they all had to have themes. so one was farm animals, the other two were fishes and desert animals. then all of a sudden i just couldnt think of animals that live in a desert. fortunately joy was online. thanks joy. thanks for telling me that camels live in a desert. hahaa. i better be off exercising now. i'm getting fat after all the chocolates i've eaten. i ate them for breakfast again today, together with honey waffle cereal. how fattening! had mango for lunch's desert, which is high in sugar. ate a lollipop for tea. again high in sugar. alright. i'm off to do my sit ups, crunches, leg raises and side crunches. tonight meeting sarah and sherilyn to watch heffalump and have dinner. how exciting! by the way, lumpy's full name is heffridge trumpler brompet heffalump. so cute. bye! i'll blog again tonight!

TheServant

9:09 AM

woww! i had chocolates for breakfast today! yayy! they werent very nice cos they were spanish chocolates. you see, my dad came back from spain last saturday and bought few packets of chocolates. but they're still chocolates and i love chocolates!! so what can i say? all the sit ups and crunches and leg raises i did yesterday were all in vain cos all the kilos that i shed, or to be more precise, grams that i shed, were put on this morning due to the massive intake of chocolates. but who cares? i can always do abdominal workouts easily. heh. went to ikea at about 11am. the ikea sale is here!! what a coincidence cos today my mum took leave so we can go there together. yups. bought quite a lot of things. and my bedroom slippers! new shower curtains! a new notice board! mirror for basement toilet! plus many other new things!!! ikea stuff are so nice. almost wanted to buy a sofa bed for my room, but could not decide which size to buy. so in the end didnt buy it. now i'm super tired. got to wait for 430 till anna comes for piano lesson. quite looking forward to it. i love theory. it's a little difficult, but at least i get to use my brains to think. i love thinking.. i've officially fallen in love with music. with the guitar and the piano/keyboard. the only thing about it is that i'm not pro at either of them. so i'll use this time while i'm free to brush up on my skills on both instruments. yup. i'm bad at rhythms too. like i cant count the timings properly. i've got to work on it. darn. alright. i better rest now. tonight still going out. yup. bye!

TheServant

8:01 AM

4e6 girls in hualaoshi's class. the others are either in higher chinese or in malay class. hualaoshi's the best!

TheServant

8:18 AM

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marya and i pretending to sleep in the bus on the way to muar, malaysia, for the green revolution trip in sec3. the funny thing is that i uploaded the pics only this year. call myself efficient!

TheServant

8:12 AM

my finger still hurts. now i know why it's so painful. it's cos i tried to play too many bar chords, and because my fingers arent soo flexible, i think i pull/sprained the ligament. so now it hurts. yesterday had a super long guitar session with ben. from 230 to 600.more than three hours! but i learnt super a lot of things. so now it's practice, practice and practice. he said that he taught me all that he knew, but some part of me seems skeptical about it. oh well. as long as i learnt new stuff. anyway i think i'm a cynic and a pessimist. i always look on the dark side of things[taken from nike's 'always look on the bright side of life']. then stayed back in the office to slack around with clara and then went to up to help samuel set up the instruments. i was so suaku. didnt know how to plug in the wires and stuff. but in the end got the hang of it. quite fun eh. actually wasnt supposed to be there. just went there to be some extra. haha. left shortly after.

somebody thinks that i stay at home and slack all day long. let me clarify this once and for all: i dont waste my time! i do everything except lazying around and slacking. somebody also thinks that i'm not capable of doing many things, and that somebody thinnks that i'm lousy at computers. unfortunately, i dare to tell you straight in your face that i'm definitely one hundred times better and more proficient than you in terms of computer skills and software usage, cos you cant even type quickly. i can safely say that my english and vocabulary is one thousand times better than yours. i'm not trying to be arrogant here, but this is true!!!!! so stop asking me to go for lessons which i think you need more than i do! i'm not implying that i'm the best whatsoever, but who are you to tell me what to do? i know very well what i have to improve on. i am not perfect. maybe you think you are.. but do i care? of course not.

oh! i mentioned on monday that i cut my hair. yup. cut it on sunday. so now it's super short. now i look guai and innocent. this further emphasizes the point that i'm already guai and innocent. haa. forget all the hair clips and rubberbands. forget all the frustration when trying to tie up your hair. forget all the time wasted on it. forget all the water wasted just to wash your long hair. forget also all the shampoo used. forget the time taken to dry your hair, and forget all the knots at the ends. forget about broken combs, and forget about buying new ones. for short hair is good!!! yeaps!

today's somebody's birthday. but i'm not going to wish her happy birthday. after all, it's the thought that counts. so since i've already thought about her birthday, i dont have to wish her anymore cos it's good enough. heh. it counts!

just now i wrote in to the bus company asking if the bus fare for polytechnic students is the same as those of junior collgeg students. i heard that poly students pay the adult fare charges. this is so totally unfair. since we're of the same age, why should we be deprived of enjoying the student consession fare? i think me ez link card has been programmed to the adults fare card. if you didnt realise, if you use the student fare card and tapped it on the sensor, there'd be two beeps. but if you used the adult one and tapped it on the sensor, there'd only be one beep. last time my card used to have two beeps, however now it only has one. some stupid thing this is. darn. i hope smrt would look closely into this matter. so silly.

TheServant

11:30 AM

ok. i've decided. here are my choices:

1st choice: visual communications [temasek poly]
2nd choice: nanyang junior college [arts] [nyjc]
3rd choice: innova junior college [arts] [ijc]
4th choice: catholic junior college [arts] [cjc]
5th choice: interior architecture and design [temasek poly]
6th choice: product and industrial design [temasek poly]
7th choice: industrial design [nanyang poly]
8th choice: digital media design [nanyang poly]
9th choice: interactive madia design [temasek poly]
10th choice: dental therapy [nanyang poly]
11th choice: molecular biotechnology [nanyang poly]
12th choice: chemical and pharmaceutical technology [nanyang poly]

right. here are my twelve choices. i'd definitely be posted to my first choice cos i already got a place there through the direct admissions exercise. the school compound was so super big. thank God for my keen sense of direction, i managed to go to the right place. then so troublesome. had to go to so many different places. at least got everything settled today. after everything had to wait for a super long time just to get the stupid confirmation letter from the manager or something. temasek poly gave me a good impression of them today. they had helpful students and nice lecturers. they even said that their kois in the pond were friendly and loving and we should not fish for them. i thought that sign was quite funny and cute. haha. i'm not sure if i really want to go there, but i i'd just go there in faith. faith is the word. faith. and i must do well. must must must must must must. the only problem with it is that it's tooo far. i took about 1hour and 45 minutes to go there. found a bus service with a shorted route to go home. bus no 8. i could have got home in less than one hour if not for the stupid 857 driver who refused to stop for me despite my desperate flagging. darn. somemore still got the cheek to show me the turning-right signal. blind or what. stupid bus driver. i'm going to write in to tibs to complain and i make sure you get fired. darn. i hate tibs bus. so stupid. i hope one day sbs takes over tibs and tibs would close down. i dont care if you[reader] are a tibs bus driver. because i want you to get fired. all your bus drivers either drive too fast or too slow. dont they know that they're road hazards? besides that, they're also putting many precious lives at risk. fortunately where i normally doesnt require me to take tibs buses. heh. ok. i shall end here. i'm tired. oh and by the way, i cut ymhair until super short. haha. at least when the wind blows, it wont get messy and i dont have to waste my time tying my hair everytime. hee. bye!

TheServant

9:40 AM

went to east coast park to cycle with some girls from cg today. quite fun, but tiring as well. at least it help me shed some calories that i have put on these months. they cant really be seen, but i can feel them! my stamina has deteriorated quite a bit, but at least not so much. still had the energy to cycle literally to both ends of east coast park which was 'cycleable'. means there were cycling tracks. went to the food centre there to eat icekachang. it wasnt very nice but at least it kept all of us hydrated in this sweltering heat. it was rather ex too. cycled somemore then went to macs to cool down and have a drink and talked a little. as usual i didnt talk much. i'm a person of a few words. i like listening. it was good in the sense that i got to know more about their lives. was quite pleased. abigail and esther left shortly after that while joy mel and i stayed on to talk a little while more and made paper cranes out of receipts and mac's tray paper. left shortly after.
in a while's time, i'd be going to changi airport to pick my dad up. yeaps. he's coming back from madrid, spain after a one week business trip. transited at paris. his flight was delayed due to heavy snowing. can you imagine, at this part of the globe, people are melting in the heat but at the other end of the globe, people are freezing. interesting eh. right. got to go now. seeya!

TheServant

10:23 AM

i still cant decide where to go. why does everyone give me different answers when i ask them where to go? why dont they support me in going there? i mean like what's wrong with it right? i dont think it's a waste of time at all. if you think it's a waste of time, it means that hundreds and thousands of people out there are also wasting their time as well. or is it the fact that you look down on me? if you do just say it. dont beat about the bush. in the first place, why did i get this kind of results? i could have done better in art and english. maybe i just didnt put in much effort in it. maybe i dodnt any effort in it at all. but it's over. at least i'm pleased with my science, maths, combined humanities and history results. thank you God. bleah. what different does it make if i go to one place and not the other? i'd still finally end up at the same place right. why does my mind say one thing and my heart, another? i dont want to make anyone angry whatsoever, and that includes you. why do you keep insisting on that only choice? maybe you just dont understand everything at all. maybe you just didnt make it. darn. why am i saying all these? why do i always have to listen to you? why do you always sound as if you're always right? cant you just support me for once? darn. this whole thing really sucks. there's something wrong with my brain. it seems stuck somewhere, as though it's in a mesh cage, trying very hard to squeeze through the tiny holes. unfortunately the holes are too small and my brian is cant get out. why does she give me so many options? why are you so kind to me? this makes it so difficult to say no to you. but yet if i say yes, it'll all be against my wishes.. or have just wasted a golden opportunity if i said no? why do things always happen this way? why do things always have to be so difficult for me and easy for others? why do you always insist?oh well. the decision still lies in my hands. but i dont have much time left. darn.

readers, this entry is not meant to be understood by anyone but myself and God.

TheServant

10:29 AM

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this is my wonderful class.4e6'04 rocks! 4e6 peeps, if you want this pic, let me know k. missing in the picture are fifi and mrs irene tan.

TheServant

2:42 AM

oh dear. i cant decide where to go and what to do now. i dunno if i should go to nyjc or cjc to take art, or to go to tp to take visual comm or go nyp to take biomedical science. i dunno what i want to do in my life and i dunno what career i see myself doing in future. how sickening can this be!!!!! i hate making such choices. but at least i still have till friday afternoon to finish thinking. i started thinking on monday night. i hate this! temasek poly is too far. 22 mrt stations away!!! gosh. okay. at least the cpf/cdc people were cooperative enough to send me my singpass early enough so that i do not have to go all the way down to hdb hub in toapayoh to get it. heard a lot of people saying that their school did badly. so i'm happy cos my school did well! better than last year's cohort. the teachers truely deserve lots of thanks, especially mr chia, my physics teacher. yup. yay! 3 cheers for xinmin. xinmin is the best, and will always be! yup. i shall end here. bye!

TheServant

3:40 PM

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this picture nice right? took picture of it on mount ophir, on the fateful morning and about the same time the tsunami took many dear lives. it seems so unfair when many people on the other side of malaysia, and also in india, indonesia and srilanka were trying their very best to cling on to their precious lives, and there i was, enjoying the calmness and serenity amidst the lush foilage of this mountain.

TheServant

3:06 PM

today's the first of march. so fast. i still havent decided where i should go yet. jc or poly? this is going to be quite hard cos i hate to make decisions. argh. but anyway, i have three more days, which is not much. sigh.. going to kea with mum later. yay!!!! going to buy my red sofa for my room. haha. but i decided where to place it yet. again, i have to make decisions. but at least this kind is easier to decide. this month's phone bill's going to be super high. yesterday so many people called and i made so many phone calls. darn. and i even made two overseas smses. alright. i'm off to eat part two of breakfast. bye!

TheServant

2:32 PM

correction: actually, two fishies died today. my deepest sympathy and condolences to myself.

TheServant

5:57 AM

whew! i can finally have a dreamless sleep today. for the past few days leading to today, i have been having a lot of dreams. i guess cos my mind wasnt fully at rest. but now, after everything, i can finally rest. today, the 28th of march 2005, is officially the last day of my secondary school life. i wore the xinmin uniform for the last time. and for the last time, it was partially out. the reason is cos i've grown taller, so the shirt's shorter. heh. at least i havent grown much fatter. i still fit into my skirt! of course it looks visibly shorter as well. heh. today went to serena's house to relax with her before going to school cos i was too nervous. actually it was more like i invited myself there. so thanks serena for accomodating me! then met jacq at the school bus stop. her face was so flushed! and i couldnt walk properly. obvious that we were super nervous. met my dear marya at the school gate. as usual, she was carrying her bright orange jacket for gio junior. hah. her skirt was shorter too. i guess she altered it. heh. [was being mean indirectly, if you got the point]. saw the e6 girls at the canteen. they all changed quite a bit. but they were still their bubbly and fun loving self. e6'04 girls are the best! 3 cheers for all of them, including myself! i cant help it but to keep singing praises for my class. although we're the hottest gossip topic among teachers and principles, i still think we all deserve a pat on the back for the o level results that we produced. then heard that one person from my class fail eng and blah blah blah. and we all got so nervous and worked up about it. like who wont right? cos eng is the most important subject. then the moment which we've all been waiting for arrived. adjourned to our newly renovated hall. as usual theytalked about all the administrative things for the umpteenth time. was really boring. but luckily i sat beside hawa. the ever humourous hawa. she's super funny. and she got back to her 'touching' me again. i dont see the joy in doing it at all. haha. talked a lot of crap and kept giggling, which is nothing new between us. haha. i remember the time we pretended that we were the pharoah and 'pharoahss' of the class and we decorated our chair very fancifully. we had this stupid sweets collection, which were meant to be eaten during lessons. but the guys around us ended up eating everything. heh. quite fun. oh and there's this cheapo gang 'satolio' joke. hawa and i called teachers names too. like oyster cake etc. i shall not disclose the name of the teachers to protect their identity. hha. mind you, we're not les! they gave up so many booklets. the jae booklet, the poly one and the ite one, on top of the school mag. and finally it was time to get our results. i dunno if i was too excited or what. i kept going to the front to see if it was my turn. finally it came. had to sign the paper to acknowledge. my hands were so cold and were trembling so badly that i couldnt sign properly. so my signature for the day was just zigzag lines. whatever la. i'm sure the teachers would understand. when everything was over, they played graduation song, which was so appropriate for the moment. we're finally secondary school graduates. but for some, this is only the beinning. the top scorers from my school were mainly the scholars. only two singaporean top scorers. does this mean that singaporeans are stupider than our foreign counterparts? darn. but what can i say? they're scholars after all. so there should be no qualms. yuxuan and sharon were the two singaporean top scorers. yay! they're both from 2e1, which was my class! yay! alright. i better end here. it's getting late. bye!

TheServant

3:42 PM

today's the big day. getting back o level results today. darn. actually there's no need to be nervous. ok. ending here. cant think of what to write. i'm too nervous to think and my fingers cant move properly. bye! and as i said yesterday, whatever it is, please do not ask me my results. bye!

TheServant

1:01 AM

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