this evening the sky was painted reddish purple mixed with grey.

it was quite a day. went out with mom to settle some issues. it would be selfish to say that it is none of my business. anyway i hope that it all turns out well la. (:

i exercised today. my body's really in a bad shape. cant even do 10 push ups! how lousy. at least still managed to do a substantial amount of sit ups and crunches. musnt eat too fattening foods already. i dont want to grow fat!! need to get back the abdominal muscles i had in sec school. my arm has grown fatter already. :(

when boys become men.

to know what happened this afternoon during cell lunch, click on the link on the right side that says 'sarah', so that you can read the account of what happened. her words are indeed red with fury. i'm too lazy to type the whole story, but basically there was this old and wrinkly man who suddenly came to our table and stared at the girls. the worse thing is that he was standing behind and super close to me and was scratching his feet. thank God he didnt touch me or i would have screamed. i cant stand physical contact, even more so if it's from members of the opposite sex. it is much much worse if the member of the opposite sex is old, dirty, wrinkly, disgusting, and mentally unstable. physical contact is so so not my love language. my poor sheeep lost her appetite. poor girl! let's not talk about it anymore.

other random things:
*cant wait for my optician to sms me.
*i love my maid's washing and ironing. the 1 ribena stain, 2 milo stains and 2 sambal stains on my beige shorts are GONE. i must keep that shorts clean cos it's my most ex shorts. i must keep my off-white polo shirt clean too. i think the milo stains are gone as well. i love the iron lines on my shorts/jeans/shirts whenever i wear them, especially those one shorts or jeans. lovely!
*have been trying to play the 9th fret chords and strumming that s taught me. but it's quite difficult, especially for a left hander like me with no strength in my right hand.
*no pasir ris pri acrylic painting this week. hope the plmc painting comes soon!
*i encouraged somebody today (:
*i'm going jogging and exercising with mom in the park tomrrow. they built new exercising things. yayy!
*i need new track shoes. have been wearing it since sec 3. bros says to buy asics. think it's good too. my lovely spike shoes are asics too!
*ILOVEMYCELLGROUP!!!!! YAYY!
*i want to go kayaking and get a tan. basically get a tan la.

this is the end of a random post. goodbye and thank you.

rajaratnam has died. last night i was watching a show on him on channel news asia, where they spoke to people like lee kuan yew, prof tommy koh, sr nathan etc about his life. rajaratnam believed in an anti-racial society, not a mulit-racial society. meaning to say that singaporeans do not come together as chinese or indians or malays, but as one nationality. hmm. that's something to think about. he was the one who drafted the pledge which we say every morning in our schools and once a year during the national day parade. the flags in all government buildings would be flown at half mast.

actually last night was the first or second time i've heard of him. hahahaa. think he was some law minister last time, which is why he got to draft the pledge. the ironic thing is that he was born in sri lanka and studied in england. he came to singapore when singapore was still under colonial rule. means he wasnt a true blue singaporean!! unlike me!! hahhaa.

got new red specs today:) went to the optician in the afternoon for an eye checkup and my eyesight improved. my astigmatism decreased. yay! the optician was super nice la. nice young lady. oh no i forgot to ask if the lens is multi coated. grrr.

made a new cover for my bible today. i think it's nice and simple. yay. wrapped it in plastic so that it wont get torn easily cos i cut the outlines with super great care. the outlines are like 3mm thick.

on tuesday recco came to try saving the fishes. you see, there's a disease called 'pek diam' or white spots, spreading in the fish tank. about half of the fish population in there have died in a just 4 days. there were 400 over fishes inside the 4 feet tank. actually fishes are quite lousy things. hahahaa. but the look nice in the planted aquarium that my dad set up. wonder how he'd feel when he comes back from china soon. everything in there is super ex la!!

thought: why do i have to go through things that normal people dont?!?!

i think i starting to like suspended 2 and 4 notes. no no, i'm lovin' it! this morning i woke up at 1030 and decided to go downstairs to play piano. just played suspended chords in E,G and D, then the chords soon became a song and i played Still in all suspended chords. hhaaah! it sounded a bit weird cos too much suspension and to too little 'resolvation'. no such word i guess. but i basically mean that it very seldom resolved back to the root chord. lalalaaa. the chorus was nice though. then i went back to my room and picked my guit, opened my chords book and learnt how to play Dsus2 and Asus 2. yayyeyaaayy! i learnt 2 new things this morning. but i still cant play Still on guit with all sus chords. i'm quite lousy!! anyway i'm playing for cell this week so must start practicing.

my maid accidentally cut my favourite painty xinmin pe shorts in the process of washing. ::( :( :( :( :( MY FAVOURITE PAINTY XINMIN PE SHORTS!! it has lots of paint on it due to the painting the drama backdrop canvas. grrr. at least she has the brains to sew it back. but now there's a crease on it cos of the sewing. grrrrr. my favourite sloppy shorts is now a bit spoilt. i want a new one in the exact same old condition without the hole and stitches.

i'm quite happy that i managed to talk to all of my meh-mehs yesterday :) yea. although some of them were a 'hi how are you' kind of conversation, i think it was a good start for me.

many church people have left or are leaving sunny singapore to further their studies.two of them left yesterday.others leaving in june i think. :(:( oh well. it's a passing phase in life and in say 5 years time we'll see them back again. when will it be my turn?

today this stupid boy in 5b made me very irritated. next time i'll just pour paint over his head. hahaa. then that'll be just too bad for him. i'll tell you his nameif you ask. hahaa.

i finally bought pencil lead. finally, after last novemeber. and popular at thomson plaza and costa sands doesnt have the pen that i like! grrr.

tmr i got to go j clinic again to see st lee. sigh. how i hate it. at least i'm finally going after many postponing the appointment since jan till now. sigh.

random thought: if i ever go overseas, would anyone bother to go to the airport to send me off even if it's a midnight flight? somehow i have this feeling that only my parents would be there. mmm..

YOU'RE JUST DOWNRIGHT BIASED. ydoolb lleh.

today has been an exciting day. did many many things i should be doing. hahaa. on the way back from bishan s and i heard a loud bang somewhere on the road between ajc and yck mrt. a lorry hit the back of a taxi. think the windscreen of the lorry/truck was smashed into smitherines. sarah and i were at the bus stop nearby waiting for 86 to come. wanted to go nearer and see but we decided not to in the end. the division of responsibity.we learnt in psychology. something like xiu shou pang guan attitude, but it's more of expecting others to do it. and everyone expects others to do it so in the end no one does it.

yay they're finally building new playground things in the park. not that i'll go and play there la.but at least i know that tax payer's money is being put to good use. not only used to upgrade hdb flats but housing estates like mine. if not it's terribly unfair that the government spents so much money painting and repainting and building things in the hdb area but not in ulu housing estates. hope they'll build real soccer goal posts in the field and some exercise things like pull up bars and sit up benches etc. it'll be good :) it'll be even better if they rubberise the track that goes around the field so that it'll be better for running. means no cycling. hhaaha. too bad.

discussing with jop now on msn about whales. hahaa. how silly.

i need to pee but i dont feel like getting out of my chair. hahaa. argh. i'm quite urgent!!! and my legs are having pins and needles. help!!

good morning!

this morning my stupid sister got up super early in the morning and turned off the air conditioning and ceiling fan and switched on the light. not only was it super hot, it was hard for me to get back to sleep. stupid girl. boloyd hlel. what's worse is that it's SATURDAY! come on. it's a day where we're supposed to sleep in and i dunno why she has to go to her stupid school to do some stupid things. damn.

anyways, here are the things i was supposed to do yesterday:
1. lunch with weijin
2. pretend to be claude monet and paint a picture using acrylics
3. cut my hair.

now, here're the things i did:
1. lunch with weijin.

at least the time spent was a worthwhile one. :):):) i cant wait for her exams to end so that we can go exercising and tanning together. hhaaha. yay!

okay. i need to go sarah's house for w. prac. now. bye!

oh TASTE and SEE that the Lord is good
oh taste and see that the LORD is good
oh taste and see that the Lord IS good
oh taste and see that the Lord is GOOD
OH TASTE AND SEE THAT THE LORD IS GOOD

i'm tired. slept for only 3 hours last night. slept at 4 and woke up at 7. seh. spent the night doing up my photo scrapbook thing, that goes well with my theme. at least cheeyong likes the binding and cover. yay. my first year in tp design school has officially ended. no more lessons. tmr just got to go back to school and collect my work. what a waste of time.

i need to catch up on more sleep. yesterday walked from bras basah to peace centre to print stuff then walked all the way to ps to wait for a friend. was walking around all the levels to look at stuff and get ideas for what to make as gifts or for christmas this year. shall not say my idea cos it's supposed to be left for CHRISTMAS! barang barang sells super cute stuffed toys. *hints* *hints*. was walking to the escalator to go up and i unknowingly walked up the escalator that was coming down. and i almost fell. how paiseh la!!! bet everyone around me was staring and once i walked away they'd burst out laughing. stupid.

this year is going to be a busy one. with many new things happening and outcomes which i dont know what to expect. it'll be a year of growth, a year of change. lots of it in fact. yup.

i'm sick of this ochre blogskin. looks quite shitty already. argh. time to change!!! see? a year of change! now i cant be bothered going to blogskins.com to look for skins. i'd rather be simple and use the default ones. it's better for morzilla firefox or safari users. i'm one of them as well. that's why.

noticed the advertisement on bus stops that say we're a part, not apart? actually, thinking about it, the visual form of the words contradicts its meaning. the term 'a part' is visually apart, as it is two seperate words, when it actually means being together. the word 'apart' is visually in one piece, when it actually means several pieces. see what i mean? hheh. if you dont then forget it. it's not important anyway.

right now it's time for lunch and a nice short nap before heading down to unity primary.

bye!

a random thought:

i learnt in psychology class that people get motivated because they want to satisfy their need for affliation, love and belongingness, according to the maslow's hierarchy of needs. however sometimes the motivation to satisfy this need becomes too overwhelming until it gets all wrong and messed up and complicated. sometimes the motivation also occurs at the wrong time, and when too many parties get involved, it becomes very hurtful. sometimes the motivation becomes too strong that it overpowers their brains. hahaa. but it's true. that's when they start doing stupid things they ought not to do and thinking of things the ought not to think. sometimes getting too motivated is no good.

today's valentine's day. but it doesnt feel like valentine's day at all. in fact, it feels like any other weekday. and today is called tuesday. now tuesday means that i've got to wake up extremely early in the morning and go all the way to pasir ris pri for acrylics lesson on impressionism. it's a 3 classes day and is quite tiring. fortunately this week not so much carrying to do and not so administrative stuff to do. but this tuesday is a different one. no, i didnt go to school, i went to plmgps to learn ceramics. it was quite fun learning the techniques and stuff :) and i made a toiletbowl and an ancient chinese smiley face chop. hope s can help me bisque and glaze fire them. in case you dont know what i mean by ancient chinese smiley face chop, it is basically those rectangular stone thing which the chinese use to print their names. yup. and i made one using clay with a smiley face and the bottom. hee. hahaaa.

went to weijin's house yesterday for a swim. and of course i wont wear a swimming costume!! haha. i wore my track shorts and last time track sleeveless shirt. tucked in like some toot so that it'll look like a swim suit from far cos all dark blue. haha! i'm a schemer! anyway i think it's a good fake idea. and there were several china people, one old man and one old woman in the swimming pool swimming with us. the old man kept blocking my way. haha. silly fellow.

On Valentine's Day
He's painted all the stars in the night sky
And rising the sun just for you
We celebrate valentine's day because God first loves us

firstly, let me talk about yesterday night. man, it was an awesome night! amos invited us to go for his projserve06 concert at singapore youth for christ at geylang. i actually dont quite know where it is exactly. it's not important anyway. the thing is that i thought it was a very good idea to have an evangelical outreach this way. its cool man. i dont really say things are cool unless they really are, so this is it! they played some pop songs and chinese jay chou and emil chau and tao ze songs. then they slowly introduced jesus christ into the picture. the theme was on friends. think they composed some songs also. the song our redeemer is faithful and loving is super nice. and their harmonizing is super zai. did not regret going at all. it was so surreal. the atmosphere, although in a garage, was just perfect. the dinner was not bad also. quite fun and hands on. i thoroughly enjoyed myself :) it was a good stress reliever.

today i finally managed to print my vscp1 stuff. whew. i heave a sigh of relief. it's almost done! i still have the coporate gift left to do. but it's okay. can do it later. at least no more computer work! computers make me an angry girl. but somehow i just rely on it so much. like now. i'm obviously at the comp doing this.

feel very bad for letting sher pplay for me this week cos at 404pm i was still at selegie printing my work. last time she led worship for me cos i was too tired. i really owe her a lot!!! ahh. i'm so bad. i'm so bad. i'm so bad.

monday is coming again. means back to work! but i sort of enjoy it and getting dirty with my paints. haha. yay. i dirtied one of my not very new but not very old shirts last tuesday. i should be more careful in future and prevent myself from dirtying more clothes. hahaa. sometimes i cant help it cos it's so me to dirty myself everytime i paint or do art stuff. hahaaa.

okay i better go eat some stuff cos i just ate breakfast and it's 2025pm. ahahaa. cereal for dinner!

it's 930am in the morning and i'm up and about. actually i woke up at 830 but had probs with the comp for the past hour. stupid comp. yesterday was the day that all electronic gadgets that i used were problematic. firstly, the mac in school didnt want to burn the cd for me. fortunately yongkin was there to help me fix the prob. he's the lecturer by the way. then after that ub the printing room the system cocked up also. at night, had to print some stuff for comdi and after printing the first three pieces, the printer threatened and gave me the 'no ink' signal even though i could see the ink right before my very eyes. after, the nano was plugged in to charge and dunno do what and made the comp very slow and eventually hanged. so had to reboot it again. i dunno why after installing the new antivirus, the comp slows down. even things like opening illustrator takes quite some time. after rebooting the comp after the hang i signed into msn and to my horror, all 100 over contacts were gone. weird, it seems. cos my display pic was still there. not the default one. so i signed out and signed in again. whew. fortunately it was back to normal after the second sign in. homeostasis. if not i'll have to find all my contacts all over again and all my years of hard work collecting contacts would be all gone down the drain. stupid msn. argh. and this morning, like all mornings, there was a problem with internet connectivity. how silly. and the comp hanged again, wasting one hour of my life. maybe the comp didnt want to get up cos it slept late last night. so did i okay. grrr. i have a love hate relationship with technolgy.

today's the release of the 2005 gce o level results. how exciting! it's no point saying all the best cos the exams are over. oh well. maybe i should just say, erm, dont be nervous and have a nice day! :)

valentine's day is coming next tues. guess what folks?



i've got a date!!!



a date with



MY BED!



yes it's true. it's really time to spend more time with my bed after neglecting it for the whole of this sem. hehehee.

tonight i'm going to singapore youth for christ for a concert in which amos is playing in the band. i think. quite exciting. havent been to social events for a long time!!! i need a life man. lalalaa. the thing is that i've got no idea where it is and what time it starts and school ends at 4 today. i'm so going to sleep in psycho lecture today :)

i'm quite happy that the term is coming to a close! the good thing is that in design school, we've got no exams, so we get a week extra of school holidays. hahaa. and like other schools, we begin the new term on 24 april. hahah. two solid months of holiday. time for part time jobs!!!

things i need to do real real soon:
1. get all my projects printed and mounted or binded
2. cut my hair
3. sleep
4. buy new things. anything will do
5. do nothing

my stomach didnt feel good today. the whole day, right from the start of myday at 730, until now at 2352. unfortunately my day hasnt ended yet. it's those kind of stomachache where you feel like shitting but can't shit and feel like puking but can't puke. nothing comes out either way. must be the amount of rubbish i've been eating the past few days. argh. the stupid feeling still lingers.

today has been a superbly long and tiring day and i'm glad it's nearly over. helped out in 3 classes today. 5B's the worse class so far. really cant stand the guys in that class man. still dare to say 'crap' when they were punished in front of the class. stupid fellows. the best and most skill class is 5A. they super cute. they spontaneously discussed as a group how to mix paint and in what proportion. hahaa. and they can mix the paint quite accurately.at least some of them la. definitely better than 5b. this job's quite fun :) hee.

thought rev stanley's sermon on sunday was good. his sermons are always good anyway.

Mountains and Prayer
1. mountains remind us of our inability and God's ability
2. the presence of mountains can make us stronger
3. mountains can lead us

BELIEVING PRAYERS CAN MOVE MOUNTAINS.

cos

THERE'S NO PROBLEM SO BIG GOD CANNOT SOLVE, AND THERE'S NO MOUNTAIN SO BIG GOD CANNOT MOVE.

as easy as that. i was very comforted and ministered, like God answering my prayers. awesome:)

dear God, i ask, that you'll move that mountain in my life. God, reign over it, with your wisdom, power and love. thank you Lord. Amen.

my God is so big, so strong and so mighty, there's nothing my God cannor do, for you !

i'm now sitting with two oter people in the comp lab trying to study for psycho exam, with them blasting some strange music. and i stupidly forgot to bring my pencil case. so primary school. in p4 forgot to bring my pencil case for one week! arghhh. what's with me these days!!!! and i just myself into some deep shit with my group proj. shucks.

God get me out of this!!!! pleaseeee!

i'm actually enjoying studying. havent studied from proper books for like more than a year. this sure feels goood. ha! i miss going to school and singing national anthem and wearing school u.

i'm quite excited. going to big aunt's house tonight for dinner. i'm not that excited over the dinner, but over the nice new year stuff that she'll buy. hopefully she has gao sai. it's the hard and crispy pork floss, that's looks like the shape of dog shit. hahaaa. gao is dog and sai is shit. i love it!!

on a sadder note, starting this chinese new year of the dog reminds me of the demise of my beloved dog last december, merely two months ago :( how coincidental.

okay. back to studying. the experimental process is the only way to establish a cause and effect relationship. in an experiment, there're two groups. one is called the control group and the other, the experimental group. the experimental group receives treatment but the control group does not. there are also variables. independent, dependent and confounding. the independent variable is the one manipulated. the dependent variable is measured and expected to change as a result to the changes made to the independent variable. confounding variables are variables that ruin an experiment, like noise.

yayyy. that's for the experiment process :) about 3/4 of a chapter. not bad ah.

i'm hungry. maybe i should sneak milo and donuts into the comp lab again. last week my teacher caught me bringing milo in. haha. but i still drank anyway. and the water from my photo bag leaked onto the comp table. thank goondess no electric shocks. bzzzz. zip! ah! i died.

tralllala, lalala.

alright. i should really end this post now.

i've realised that for the past year, i havent bought anything for myself, except materials for school. last chinese new year i did not buy any new clothes, and this year too. no new bag, new wallet, new watch, new camera, new tops, new pants and jeans, new socks, new shoes, new mp3 player, new laptop and the list goes on and on and on.

how sad :(

yes i know i must be grateful for everything i have. i have a nice house, a nice and big and messy yellow and green room and a nice and messy wooden study table. but i want to get something new!!!! it's always exciting to get new things. but i dont get them very often. i got my room 2 years ago,and the table like 9 years ago. my bag is about 3 years old, wallet about 1 year plus, no watch, very old socks, half a year old shoes, no mp3 and no laptop. hahahaaaa.

God you heard me.

at least i'm going to start work soon. yaye. God's perfect timing. i really really want a DSLR above everything else. looks like i've got to work 3 jobs la. or else a 5 megapix digicam will do. i'm going to work hard to get my stuff. it's better to work and get your own stuff then others buy it for you. yup:)

i'm going to learn driving soon. then i'll get to drive my mum's car. haahaa. lalalaaa. 4 more months to go!

alright i've got to go now. going for job briefing at elaine's. starting work on monday! how exciting :)