i was so ashamed,all alone and so far away. but now i know that He's been waiting for this day..

things are finally really happening even before i come to realise them. horrors of horrors. but it doesnt mean that the things are bad things ones though. in fact i think they're quite good. it's just that they're happening too fast, and i've got to catch up. it's the beginning of responsibilities. it's the beginning of trials. it's the beginning of worries. it's the beginning of 'lost-ness'. it's the beginning of failures. it's the beginning of triumph. it's the beginning of an exciting journey. it the beginning of growth. if this is what i've been called for, i'll just have to do it in faith and in confident trust. i'm really quite excited but at the same time a bit apprehensive.
thankfully He has placed good people in my life to guide me and pick me up. can't imagine how depressed i'll be after what happenend when i was younger. it is still quite vivid in my memory, and once in a while, it just plays back in my mind. it really hurts. they have since been forgiven. sometimes we try to not allow situations to affect us or deter us from achieving things. but it's difficult. these angels in my life, [although some might never read this, some would], are the ones who helped me along when i couldnt seem to find my way out of the jungle. even when i was out of the jungle, they still made sure i was alright.
now i want to be the angel that others have been to me.

TheServant

12:01 AM