Wednesday, June 14, 2006
today has been a hungry day. i only ate 2 paos and one bowl of tang hoon soup. reason is cos i dont dare to eat anything!! i keep thinking that the piece of gum that they stitched came off, especially when i ate tanghoon, which has the similar texture to that of a loose piece of gum. maybe i might even swallow that piece of gum. scare myself only. hmpff. and i spent 20 minutes eating 1 bao. had to pluck out small pieces and eat them with my head tilted so that food wont move to the right side. sigh.. struggle. eating has become a chore now. no longer a joy :(
oh yes. thank goodness i read my tp email today. or i would have forgotten to do my powerpoint presentation on woody pirtle!!! goodness. how could i forget such an important thing!!! anyway i managed to finish it on time to go to school. i think i did quite okay for the presentation, sufficient info and all. thankfully.
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was thinking of one of my friends and sometimes i wonder why some people seem to live an almost perfect life. they look good, they dont have to go for gum grafting! they have money, get good grades, they have skills, they have so many friends who care for them, remember their birthdays, and have almost every other thing they ever needed in this world. everything they want is given to them so readily and they dont have to ask for anything more. it's hard not to be envious of them. so why does God provide some people more than He gives others? i'm not sure if that's a correct question to ask. i definitely dont have all of the above. maybe jus a little. very little. but i know of people who have. anyway, let's not talk about others, but ourselves. since life is a test/trial, i guess this is probably part of the test. God wants to see what our hearts are truely after. let's face it. we're humans and we live in a secular world. naturally our hearts would hunger for things like money, the perfect boy/girlfriends, new devices, the perfect body and the list goes on. God's gracious enough by giving us the chance to choose what we really want. and choices make or break a person. therefore we have to be aligned with Him and provision is a certainty. promise come through faith that might be according to grace. so, we should trust the Provider and not the provision, for He is jehovah jireh.
i've got a choice to make. what's yours?
i dunno why i typed what i just typed. just suddenly felt so strongly about it that i've got to write it down.
oh yes. thank goodness i read my tp email today. or i would have forgotten to do my powerpoint presentation on woody pirtle!!! goodness. how could i forget such an important thing!!! anyway i managed to finish it on time to go to school. i think i did quite okay for the presentation, sufficient info and all. thankfully.
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was thinking of one of my friends and sometimes i wonder why some people seem to live an almost perfect life. they look good, they dont have to go for gum grafting! they have money, get good grades, they have skills, they have so many friends who care for them, remember their birthdays, and have almost every other thing they ever needed in this world. everything they want is given to them so readily and they dont have to ask for anything more. it's hard not to be envious of them. so why does God provide some people more than He gives others? i'm not sure if that's a correct question to ask. i definitely dont have all of the above. maybe jus a little. very little. but i know of people who have. anyway, let's not talk about others, but ourselves. since life is a test/trial, i guess this is probably part of the test. God wants to see what our hearts are truely after. let's face it. we're humans and we live in a secular world. naturally our hearts would hunger for things like money, the perfect boy/girlfriends, new devices, the perfect body and the list goes on. God's gracious enough by giving us the chance to choose what we really want. and choices make or break a person. therefore we have to be aligned with Him and provision is a certainty. promise come through faith that might be according to grace. so, we should trust the Provider and not the provision, for He is jehovah jireh.
i've got a choice to make. what's yours?
i dunno why i typed what i just typed. just suddenly felt so strongly about it that i've got to write it down.
TheServant
12:31 AM