today i met her for 3 hours. as usual it was great. but this time round what she said made me think about a lot of things. a lot a lot of things, and one main very very important thing, which i think is not the time to write here yet. ya but the time comes, you'll know.

the time is near.

quote of the day
' it's not what the others expect of you, but what you expect of yourself '

but sometimes what people expect of me is a whole lot higher than what i expect of myself. sometimes i feel that it's easier to do things becasue you're expected to do it rather than doing it because you expect yourself to do it. maybe i just lack in confidence. i must dare and be bold enough to make mistakes. i must believe in what i'm doing and not be afraid of what others say, but at the same time know when to listen to others. i musnt be to comfortable doing the same things over and over again. i musnt be afraid to try. i must breathe in, and step out of the box. most importantly, i musnt rely on my own strength. i must learn to be weak, so He can be strong.

the time is near.

i was thinking of joining an older cell group. i want to be in a more mature environment, somewhere where they can be an example for me to follow, where they know what they doing and where they're going. they must be moving forward, and they must a continuous process of seeking and expecting. they must have a vision. there cannot be politics cos it defeats the purpose of being in a cg. i'm still in the process of thinking about it and deciding on what i want and which one i should join. everything rises and falls on leadership, so it's important that i choose the right one. but there arent many choices though, the most 4. of course there's no perfect cg. we shall see la. i'll probably try to attend one session of each cg to have a look. hope i dont feel awkward with all the older people.

anyway, here's the toilet bowl that i made! my first ever ceramics piece :)