i cant believe i'm so blur. things happen right before my very eyes and i dont even know about them. i didnt even get the slightest hint of the things that have been happening. maybe i'm just too ignorant. sometimes being ignorant is good. it prevents you from being too influenced by others. this is the reason why i dont really hang out with the people in my school. i dont participate in their gossiping sessions and only treat them as people whom i've to learn from [in terms of school assignments and work] in this phase of my life. i dont see why i should talk to them when i very well know that they dont do things that are correct. i mean mixing with this kind of people is quite a waste of time. you dont gain anything out of the 'friendship', and you try very hard not to get influenced. so what's the point. sigh. yeah so it's better to stick to the few people whom i know are walking right with Him. in fact there's quite a handful of them. so ya.