Wednesday, November 01, 2006
sigh. today is not a good day. i find myself lost in the whirlwind of events. i feel giddy and trapped. i need to break free.
i hate it when some people dun seem to trust me and what i've been doing all day. here i am doing things that earns me some extra cash to support myself financially and have some savings and go to school at the same time and yet some people are there interrogating me each night as if i'm some hard core criminal or something. dont these people know how shitty this feels. and it makes my mood for the day plunge from average to rock bottom. and it certainly doesnt help even more when they keep asking me to do thing after thing when i dont get credit for it at all but instead scold me for other things. the worse is that these people dont listen and remember to what i say and i always have to repeat it 4-5 times before it gets into their head. these people are always preoccupied with other things and other people. they dont try to understand and be in my shoes. they dont understand the things that i do. they dont understand that the things i do takes time and the end product doesnt come with a snap of a finger. they have never been in this field and i hate it when they anyhow assume things and poke their heads into it. they dont understand the meaning of wanting to be alone and not wanting to talk to anyone after a long tiring day of work and school. they dont understand the meaning of a time of self reflection and spending time with God ALONE, which i always appreciate. i hate it when i sit alone in the basement and these people will come and ask me why am i not upstairs talking to them. whatever la.
or is it my fault?
i hate it when some people dun seem to trust me and what i've been doing all day. here i am doing things that earns me some extra cash to support myself financially and have some savings and go to school at the same time and yet some people are there interrogating me each night as if i'm some hard core criminal or something. dont these people know how shitty this feels. and it makes my mood for the day plunge from average to rock bottom. and it certainly doesnt help even more when they keep asking me to do thing after thing when i dont get credit for it at all but instead scold me for other things. the worse is that these people dont listen and remember to what i say and i always have to repeat it 4-5 times before it gets into their head. these people are always preoccupied with other things and other people. they dont try to understand and be in my shoes. they dont understand the things that i do. they dont understand that the things i do takes time and the end product doesnt come with a snap of a finger. they have never been in this field and i hate it when they anyhow assume things and poke their heads into it. they dont understand the meaning of wanting to be alone and not wanting to talk to anyone after a long tiring day of work and school. they dont understand the meaning of a time of self reflection and spending time with God ALONE, which i always appreciate. i hate it when i sit alone in the basement and these people will come and ask me why am i not upstairs talking to them. whatever la.
or is it my fault?
TheServant
10:55 PM