i've always felt inadequate. like i'm not good enough. i dont reach standards. i never excel anything. i'm not good in math, science, music, art, sports. i'm mediocre. i dont like being mediocre. i want to be better. but i dunno how. i feel like i'm trapped in a box and i cant come out. S said that it's a common feeling. but somehow i've doubts about it. Maybe the best thing i can do to glorify God is to be a good friend to someone. but then again, glorifying God is not measured by stupid human standards and human capabilities.

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i want to know that my efforts are appreciated. at least a thank you is good enough. i dun like it when i feel that i've been taken for granted because i dont like to do things for others half heartedly.
i want people to listen to me and not simply hear me. but most people that i know havent really mastered what you call effective listening yet :( that makes me sad.

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cell outing tmr!! think it's gonna be exciting. smiles.